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Post by jcurio on Nov 17, 2019 18:27:39 GMT -6
However, take a step back, and remember just one of my “quirks”......
I felt like praying for her
Her scenes were very dark (it WAS the week of Halloween). Including a “love song” with the background of a cave with black crows (or were they bats?)..... IDK
DARK, over and over
(and reminding myself that her love of her life has passed in the last few years)
~ sigh ~
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Post by jcurio on Nov 23, 2019 17:04:22 GMT -6
I’m on TEOR today (obviously).
Did not plan to be..... 🙄
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Post by jcurio on Nov 23, 2019 17:08:58 GMT -6
December, one of the key players in the Tic Tac UFO mystery will be chasing a theory that UFOs may be migrating, not unlike whales, between Catalina Island off California and Mexico’s more remote Guadalupe Island. (From revisiting Ruwa ‘94 that I posted about on another thread).
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Yes, I have often wondered about the “cyclic” appearance of this phenomenon. In myself and my family, the Fall season is pertinent (that we know of).
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Post by jcurio on Nov 23, 2019 18:29:09 GMT -6
Ah.... the Fall season. 🙂
We’ve had 2 snows here, and 67 degrees here last week. I’ve installed bright white lights indoors on lamps instead of soft white. My list of clients keeps me out and about in my car; even if their homes are dark (or bleak).
I am SO VERY glad, that I have a wealth of personal notes here on TEOR. My memory is not the same; my folks memories are not the same.
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Post by jcurio on Nov 23, 2019 18:30:37 GMT -6
For the most part, it has been an “uneventful” Fall. I am thankful for a lot. 🤗
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Post by jcurio on Nov 23, 2019 18:58:18 GMT -6
The dream I just shared. Other dreams I have had since.... about our world falling apart.
And I am at peace. 😊
I attribute this peace to my prayer life and Bible study; nothing else. There was a day a week ago, where I was so agitated that I nearly felt hopeless.
It was a total physical feeling. Jumpy. For no reason. Didn’t even want to drive my car feeling that way! I could not pin point any cause.
So, I just prayed for myself. Talked outloud to Jesus in my car. Asking for His help. Admitting that I had no clue WHAT I was feeling, but telling Him I trust Him to make “it right”.
I did my job that morning, and felt fine by Noon.
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Post by jcurio on Nov 30, 2019 8:52:18 GMT -6
Today is actually my family get together for Thanksgiving ☺️.
I look forward to it; once I forget how I’m going to be doing last minute cleaning up to the time of arrival in the early evening....
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Post by jcurio on Nov 30, 2019 9:02:26 GMT -6
Ahhhh.... the travesty of working outside the home now! (I joke that my clients homes are “cleaner” than mine; they get regular face-lifts from me 😅). Last night I made pancakes for a client and did the dishes afterwards. 😊
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I got on here to unload..... a lot of dreams last night. Or whatever. Often, this is my place to vent.
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Post by jcurio on Nov 30, 2019 9:05:48 GMT -6
Oh man 😢. Just thought of Jo’s family trying to have Thanksgiving. 😩
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Post by jcurio on Nov 30, 2019 9:25:48 GMT -6
I’ve tried reading some Jacques Vallee this week. Looked at the “missing people” thing a bit. It’s not holding my interest.
That’s a good thing. I have to “be positive”, especially for my elderly clients, and the subject is a real downer. Really.
I have one client for over a year now, who is x-military, and literally watches tv all day 😄. It doesn’t matter what time of day that I have gone over there..... and I have an idea of his “mood” by what he has on tv. And he also has a tablet going on his lap.... (2 sounds of voices from tv going at once. His Alexa, and a security system that chimes every time a car drives by...).
He’s got some great video of foxes on his back patio!
He also watches ancient aliens. And old war documentaries. 😉 All good...... just difficult for ME; some days..
He says he’s never seen a ufo. I wonder now if that is true.
And that’s my issue with him..... I don’t trust him. A great guy, easy to work for, but maybe someday I will tell on here why he “kind of, gives me the creeps”. It’s little things (that could be big). I don’t know if I will be working for him if he shows any dementia.
Now, this isn’t connected with him being “a little off”. The ufo thing; I mean. The “ufo thing” is what got my attention that he probably lies....
He’s a lonely man and I go into his house. My guard should be up. (BTW, he does have a steady girlfriend that he sees every day).
Just one of those people that doesn’t have to work hard to charm the socks off of both genders..... but it’s often a “shiny veneer”? Like, he has ALWAYS been a genuinely nice man, but he’s kind of tired of being that: day in and day out.
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Post by jcurio on Nov 30, 2019 9:29:11 GMT -6
And, that is where “my dreams last night” comes in...
Again, people, life in general; things not being what they seem. The story of my life. LOL.
I can’t think of this today. It’s THANKSGIVING weekend! 😄😁😉
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Post by jcurio on Dec 7, 2019 12:28:57 GMT -6
Last night I dreamed of trying to explain to someone about the “joy of Christ” 🤗. I don’t know who. We kept getting interrupted??
And today I found that video of “ode to joy” that I recently posted on the music thread. 😉
What is Joy?
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Post by jcurio on Dec 7, 2019 12:33:31 GMT -6
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Post by paulette on Dec 8, 2019 20:46:36 GMT -6
That's Big!
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Post by jcurio on Dec 11, 2019 0:44:38 GMT -6
Surely some of you still enjoy quotes? I’m suggesting that you take the time to read these: www.goodreads.com/work/quotes/877675-surprised-by-joy-the-shape-of-my-early-life_____________ I’m trying to find where CS Lewis talks about “finding Joy while riding in the sidecar of a motorcycle”. And found some other “thoughts” on joy...... _____________ And, I had always heard that CS “avoided God”. I was reminded on how God found him 🤗
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Post by jcurio on Dec 11, 2019 0:53:21 GMT -6
I always like to say that I was “woo-ed by God”. Chased. Hard to describe, and some people insist on denying that it can happen in such a way (though it has happened to many people).
As A child, I had made proclamations that I was His. I spent a great deal of time trying to “get those feelings out” of my system. Literally shook my fist at the sky.
There was never any denial that He was Real. I just wanted to go my own way. I was interested or “ tempted “ in trying some other things with my life.
That didn’t work out. ~ shrug ? Ha, ha.
Funny how NOW, the issue is become, “Is God Real”. (Doubts out of no-where? Or planted thoughts).
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Post by jcurio on Dec 11, 2019 0:57:55 GMT -6
So, honestly, I still never deny that He is real. Those doubts feel weird.
What I DO question, still, is the timing of my baptism; shortly after I was “missing” at 4 years old.
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Post by jcurio on Dec 11, 2019 6:02:08 GMT -6
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Post by jcurio on Dec 11, 2019 6:12:03 GMT -6
I was so tired at the end of work last night (last night was volunteer work 🙂). Even on the uneventful drive home. A peaceful tired. Good food and good conversations when finishing up.
I get home and have some time to myself. I remembered to look up a few things I questioned; like non-dairy cheese 🙄😂. (Of course there is such a thing).
Then I felt “wide-awake”. I really was NOT. As soon as I lay down I went to sleep. Content.
So.... why a “conversation” about “contriving” something? The final word was “contrived”. (And knowing that people do not put much “faith” in dreams).
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Post by jcurio on Dec 11, 2019 6:21:32 GMT -6
I also wanted to comment on the recent big foot thread. “Bigfoot in R. Missouri”.
We’ve got everything here 😁.
I’ve been paying a little more attention to this subject the last couple of years. I’m noticing the “Bigfoot” statues around. Some, very public. Some, a small, 1-2 foot statue (quite realistic; detailed) in people’s yards. Yeah. Like some people have small statues of ducks, or bunnies, etc..
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Post by jcurio on Dec 14, 2019 10:10:05 GMT -6
Today I’m finally decorating the home for ChristMass. So I may be on here more today....
It’s nice sometimes just to be at home
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Post by jcurio on Dec 25, 2019 13:41:17 GMT -6
Merry ChristMass, Everyone! ❤️ ************
I am overly tired. Everyone here is gone for a bit, and I still can’t nap....
30 minutes ago I was in the bathroom (again, no one home) and I simply had the exhaust fan on in there as usual. White noise?
I distinctly heard a man singing “merry Christmas” and there were trumpets playing joyfully in the background. 😊
I changed my head position and cleared my ears...... still there (very faintly). It was adorable except that I KNEW that this MUST BE an overly tired hallucination. No drinking. Or drugs (of course). Though a Benadryl sounds pretty good right now. 🙄
Trumpets!? Cool, but not sure why I would even THINK of that sound
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Post by jcurio on Dec 30, 2019 5:49:07 GMT -6
I woke up this morning...... bored. What??
Seriously. I’m hoping that mentioning it will help alleviate it.
I had awful dreams and woke up several times. Couldn’t sleep past 4:00 am and even tried reading a book!
If this is my “new norm”, I could grow to like it! 🤗
It just feels weird 😊. I’m doing laundry and drinking coffee. My first client on Mondays is at 7:00.
I’m taking my mom for a cat scan this afternoon and fairly sure all will be fine (I don’t recall if I have talked about my mom having a minor car wreck lately). She hit the street sign in front of our yard and doesn’t know if she fell asleep... ************
I’ve had a couple of “revelations” recently. Can only remember one..... LOL.
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Post by jcurio on Dec 30, 2019 5:55:29 GMT -6
And... don’t know if it’s a “new” revelation. 😊
Anyway, since childhood, I have always slept on long distance travels. (Now I sleep on 3 hour jaunts in the car -if I’m not driving). Always. Even when riding with a good friend to St. Louis. This is very easy for me, and I don’t think twice about being lousy company.
Why is this? Surely as a child I wasn’t this tired that I HAD to sleep the whole long drive from Missouri to California? (More than once).
Just curious
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Post by jcurio on Jan 4, 2020 8:19:19 GMT -6
Part of the other “revelation”, is I don’t want to talk about my family on here anymore.
A “childish” wish to keep my family out of this.
This, TEOR, is a part of my life. Much like people have their own blogs. I just think this blog is very personal. I don’t want to erase anything. I’d like to be there for someone going thru this in their life, but I don’t have the “answers”.
I don’t think that the “stigma” of being an experiencer will go away. I think that those of us that didn’t go crazy, or didn’t die during an experience, will be viewed as “strong”.
(I often don’t FEEL strong).
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Post by jcurio on Jan 4, 2020 9:45:37 GMT -6
........ look (from all my recent posts) how I just “got sucked in”. To this subject AGAIN. 🤣
I’ve got a lot of things to say..... but I need to get busy here at home. ~shrug
😊
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Post by jcurio on Jan 5, 2020 8:17:44 GMT -6
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Post by jcurio on Jan 5, 2020 18:17:09 GMT -6
I’m not nearly as “obsessed” as I used to be. Again, because it’s a bottom-less pit (as in- no explanations). A part of me, about “disclosure”, is wary about what it really means. I have my own ideas...... BUT, a part of me, is embarrassed that I have “implants” in my body. Embarrassed that at times, our secret government may have been in my life. Read more: theedgeofreality.proboards.com/thread/5339/harmonys-journal-edge?page=4#ixzz6AClIEBIn********** I’m going to try and explain this more:
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Post by jcurio on Jan 5, 2020 18:40:16 GMT -6
Titus 3:9, KJV: "But avoid foolish questions, and genealogies, and contentions, and strivings about the law; for they are unprofitable and vain."
And
1 Timothy 1:4 King James Version (KJV)
4 Neither give heed to fables and endless genealogies, which minister questions, rather than godly edifying which is in faith: so do. _________________________
Embarrassment. Because most likely the “visitor connection” has something to do with my FAMILY History (nothing to do with me, personally). And embarrassment that I have spent a large portion of the last twelve years studying this “phenomenon”.
Was this “phenomenon” ONLY a distraction? Or have I (and others) benefitted from such scrutiny?
Time will tell. _________________________
I am comfortable using the Bible for any questions about this lifetime on Earth. I get it that the secular world has debates about these “Beings” and references to “angels and demons”.
I get it, that people in churches, are uncomfortable talking about these “Beings” for the same reasons.
Questionable “Beings” of the Bible, we are given clues about why a human saw them or interacted with them. The “Beings” of today and the near past of humanity..... we are duped. Why is that?
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Post by starr on Jan 5, 2020 22:35:42 GMT -6
Titus 3:9, KJV: "But avoid foolish questions, and genealogies, and contentions, and strivings about the law; for they are unprofitable and vain." And 1 Timothy 1:4 King James Version (KJV) 4 Neither give heed to fables and endless genealogies, which minister questions, rather than godly edifying which is in faith: so do. _________________________ Embarrassment. Because most likely the “visitor connection” has something to do with my FAMILY History (nothing to do with me, personally). And embarrassment that I have spent a large portion of the last twelve years studying this “phenomenon”. Was this “phenomenon” ONLY a distraction? Or have I (and others) benefitted from such scrutiny? Time will tell. _________________________ I am comfortable using the Bible for any questions about this lifetime on Earth. I get it that the secular world has debates about these “Beings” and references to “angels and demons”. I get it, that people in churches, are uncomfortable talking about these “Beings” for the same reasons. Questionable “Beings” of the Bible, we are given clues about why a human saw them or interacted with them. The “Beings” of today and the near past of humanity..... we are duped. Why is that? We KNOW from the Holy Bible how this ends.....(my POV) we want to know these mysteries yet in the garden, God forbade us from eating from the tree of knowledge. The apple, of course, was the forbidden fruit. Which may be symbolic of a line we’re tempted to cross to discover the knowledge of other worlds , beings, technology, bigfoots?
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