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Post by Innermind on Jun 11, 2013 10:00:40 GMT -6
Hi, I am very new to this and I'm posting as I just cannot rid myself that what I experienced was "Just a dream" if that is the case, it was one very scary dream. I'm looking for help as too many weird things have been happening to me recently.
I went to bed one evening and woke paralysed in bed, by the right hand side of my bed all I could see were two spindly arms - so thin that you would presume a hard knock would break them. Small arms like that seemed to be holding me down and I was very surprised by the strength in them. Further up past the arms (for some reason I could not see who exactly the arms belonged too.) a small opening? That seemed silver was swirling above, it had a trail that seemed to pass through my bedroom wall. Have any of you seen Donnie Darko? - The connections in that film are very similar to what I saw. I tried to sit up but I couldn't and before I knew it I was asleep which I found strange as I was very scared.
Now on a couple of occasions I have woken to someone speaking to me and saying my name. This is strange as I live on my own and the male voice made me feel anxious - and now I am seeing things out of the corner of my eye all the time. It was particular distressing as, they seemed to only be in one part of the house and seemed to appear more often as I was reading. I feel like I'm going mad- can anyone help?
Thank you.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 11, 2013 10:38:36 GMT -6
Welcome to the forum Your 'dream' matches many in here...the paralysis and dream like state. The only way I can see to tell the difference between a possible nasty dream and reality is that you have other things going on..seeing things out of the corner of your eye..things have changed when you are awake and the dream stays vivid. Those things usually mean it wasn't a dream.
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Post by Innermind on Jun 11, 2013 10:45:20 GMT -6
Thanks and Hello jokelly.
Unfortunately it has stayed with me, and it is very frightening. I have two young children, and this could be just a disturbing dream is much more of what I'm hoping for. Has anyone had strange sounds in their house too? I keep hearing something akin to a woodpecker but inside the house - at first I thought it was the cat catching its paw against the wall scratching - but she was in the room with me. It happens every few days, and it's an insistent tapping that lasts maybe a minute.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 11, 2013 10:50:27 GMT -6
Sounds and noises often go hand in hand with 'alien' activity along with other things that almost seem playful. I'm not one who sees anything playfull about it at all but they effect different people differently. Maybe another of our members..Citizen K will pop into the conversation..she's been having some activity too. It can be very frightening, believe me I know...only thing you might take some comfort in..is that you are not alone.
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Post by Innermind on Jun 11, 2013 10:57:58 GMT -6
Thank you. There is no one within my friends and family I can speak to about this. A lot more has happened over the years but I would say within the past few months everything has kicked up a notch. Can you suggest anything I can do? I actually thought we had spirits/ghosts in the house but the "dream" and the voices, not to mention the strange noises seem different to what occasionally happens around the house. I have started a diary so that I don't forget things and hopefully I might see a pattern.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 11, 2013 11:05:00 GMT -6
Some of the others might have some ideas but as far as I know there isn't much you can do. Most of us here have had experiences or abductions. Do check your body for marks..burn marks or prick marks or scoop marks..bruises..things like that..also take it from a dream into reality. Your children also. I was only 5 first time.
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Post by Innermind on Jun 11, 2013 11:18:26 GMT -6
Bruises yes- but I tend to have them all the time. I'm sure I'm accident prone and I bruise like a peach. As for my kids - again with playing out and such they do receive bruises from falling over, playing ball or riding their bikes. But I will def keep an eye out. Thanks
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Post by Deleted on Jun 11, 2013 11:54:00 GMT -6
Hello Innermind. Like Jo said, you'll find that many of us have had similar experiences. I've had sleep paralysis on many occasions, stretching back to childhood. I too have awakened to a voice speaking to me while I had been sleeping. I had been told about it on a previous occasion when someone else had heard it and I had been asleep. I assume that this was male as well because it was loud and spoke fast in another language. I have no idea how long or how often this actually happens or why someone is talking to me while I'm sleeping. It makes you wonder if there is a reason to it or if that just happens to be when it shows up. I had one instance where I had awakened paralyzed and one of "them" (a Grey) was in the room with me and had it's hands on me. I could only see it's shape since the room was dark, but I knew exactly who it was. And like Jo said, many of us here have had "activity" as well. Mine usually starts off as knocking, either on doors of windows and then progresses from there. So you are not alone. Maybe in reading the threads here, you'll find possible explanations but I don't know about answers - just being honest. Since I've been on the site, everyone has been kind to me and has helped me sort through a lot of things that I've experienced.
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Post by Innermind on Jun 11, 2013 12:05:18 GMT -6
Hi wishmythos. I have been reading through the other threads and posts. It feels easier (I think that's the right word) to know others are going through the same. I have no recollections of being taken as such - just what I've posted so far and the voices. The voices started when I was pregnant with my second child, I would often hear my name being shouted and would wake up - I would check on my ex partner (asleep) and my eldest (asleep) and could not account for hearing the voices(there where a few at the beginning). After a few months it stopped, what got me about this voice was the anxiety I felt and how scared I was. And yet I went back asleep instantly after hearing it (I have no idea what was said). Now when I'm scared, there is no way I would go back to sleep as easy as that.
How do you cope with all this strangeness? I do and I don't want to know if that makes sense. I'm on my own with two children and if this is really happening I'm afraid for them. (Half of me is still thinking I might need to seek professional help - if only the fear of what's happening wasn't so strong). This is the first time I've spoken up about what's going on.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 11, 2013 12:27:33 GMT -6
Hi wishmythos. I have been reading through the other threads and posts. It feels easier (I think that's the right word) to know others are going through the same. I have no recollections of being taken as such - just what I've posted so far and the voices. The voices started when I was pregnant with my second child, I would often hear my name being shouted and would wake up - I would check on my ex partner (asleep) and my eldest (asleep) and could not account for hearing the voices(there where a few at the beginning). After a few months it stopped, what got me about this voice was the anxiety I felt and how scared I was. And yet I went back asleep instantly after hearing it (I have no idea what was said). Now when I'm scared, there is no way I would go back to sleep as easy as that. How do you cope with all this strangeness? I do and I don't want to know if that makes sense. I'm on my own with two children and if this is really happening I'm afraid for them. (Half of me is still thinking I might need to seek professional help - if only the fear of what's happening wasn't so strong). This is the first time I've spoken up about what's going on. I forgot to mention that I too, have mysteriously fallen asleep when it's clearly the wrong response when something terrifying is happening. When I heard the "voice", it scared me as well. That started at a young age, but hasn't happened in several years now, except with the aforementioned one speaking another language. The one I'm talking about only called my name. It happened at the most inopportune times and scared the crap out of me. I too thought that I was going crazy. Since I was raised in the Christian religion, I was told that either I had something mentally wrong with me, that I was demon possessed/oppressed, or it was simply the devil trying to lead me astray. So naturally, whenever the voice called me, I was afraid to answer and so I never did. Before it stopped, it called me on the same day, several months in a row. I find it interesting that it started with your second child. Is anything happening with your second as far as you can tell? I understand the feeling that you're thinking that you might be going "crazy". I went and had a psych evaluation done and I was just fine, with the exception of some minor depression. Maybe I'm not the right person to ask as how I'm coping with it, Innermind. When I began remembering, I came to a choice. Some probably think that I made the wrong choice, but I guess time will tell. Both of the threads that I've started has explained my journey with all of this thus far. It does make sense what you're saying, because we are complex beings, being able to cope and not cope on different levels. Have you had any type of "supernatural" activity, regardless of significance in your past?
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Post by Innermind on Jun 11, 2013 12:40:25 GMT -6
When I was pregnant before "the voices" I did a haunting tour at my old work place, and we stood in a circle holding hands. During this my legs felt itchy and so I left the circle and scratched at my legs as I stood up I felt someone stroking my belly. I shouted at the others that were there that they shouldn't do that to a heavily pregnant woman and each and every one of them swore they wouldn't do such a thing.
Funny you should ask, I've seen spirits off an on during my childhood - I was brought up C of E and my Nan was a Catholic. I explained to my mother (I was 11 at that time) that whilst reading I saw a man in what appeared to be a sixties outfit. Brown courdroy suit, black patent leather shoes and he had a dark brown goatee - when my mother asked me to repeat what I said to my Nan she told me to recite the catholic prayer that she wrote down for me. Once I said it I never saw him again. Bad smells have appeared in my home for no apparent reason, I've seen balls of light in my living room and bathroom - there's a small list of weird stuff.
I've had dreams that have come true (not often) but when they do it's unnerving. Most of these things happened whilst I was a kid. As for my youngest, he seems to be suffering from a lot of nosebleeds at school and headaches. I've taken him to the drs and they advised me it was a childhood thing, and tomorrow we're at the opticians.
He has had night terrors, where for six months when he was about four years old he would be terrified of going to sleep. Telling me about monsters, that died down eventually and once he's asleep he sleeps well.
I'm sorry you've also had to endure that, I know the feeling of terror too well. I once spoke to a psychic about these voices and she informed me that during the time when you're not fully asleep or awake either, it's like a meditive state and that you're more open. I have no idea if that's part of it or not.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 11, 2013 13:14:05 GMT -6
When I was pregnant before "the voices" I did a haunting tour at my old work place, and we stood in a circle holding hands. During this my legs felt itchy and so I left the circle and scratched at my legs as I stood up I felt someone stroking my belly. I shouted at the others that were there that they shouldn't do that to a heavily pregnant woman and each and every one of them swore they wouldn't do such a thing. Funny you should ask, I've seen spirits off an on during my childhood - I was brought up C of E and my Nan was a Catholic. I explained to my mother (I was 11 at that time) that whilst reading I saw a man in what appeared to be a sixties outfit. Brown courdroy suit, black patent leather shoes and he had a dark brown goatee - when my mother asked me to repeat what I said to my Nan she told me to recite the catholic prayer that she wrote down for me. Once I said it I never saw him again. Bad smells have appeared in my home for no apparent reason, I've seen balls of light in my living room and bathroom - there's a small list of weird stuff. I've had dreams that have come true (not often) but when they do it's unnerving. Most of these things happened whilst I was a kid. As for my youngest, he seems to be suffering from a lot of nosebleeds at school and headaches. I've taken him to the drs and they advised me it was a childhood thing, and tomorrow we're at the opticians. He has had night terrors, where for six months when he was about four years old he would be terrified of going to sleep. Telling me about monsters, that died down eventually and once he's asleep he sleeps well. I'm sorry you've also had to endure that, I know the feeling of terror too well. I once spoke to a psychic about these voices and she informed me that during the time when you're not fully asleep or awake either, it's like a meditive state and that you're more open. I have no idea if that's part of it or not. That's how it is for most, if not all of us here - that there has been other "happenings" which has occurred throughout life, but don't seem connected. Here's a passage from the book "Daimonic Reality" by Patrick Harpur: "Belief in the literal existence of extraterrestrial spacecraft on the part of many UFO investigators has led them to neglect investigations of the witnesses. When such an investigation has taken place, witnesses such as PC Godfrey are invariably found to have a history of "psychic" experiences, often stretching back to early childhood. Moreover, the experience, such as an abduction, which has appeared in the foreground, is often surrounded by other paranormal events which, unlike the private and personal abduction, appear to be public and impersonal. For instance, Kathie Davis's strange dream-like abduction experiences are in a matrix of weird external happenings - tiny lights whiz down her hallway; little men are seen walking out of the bedroom walls; she receives, every Wednesday, telephone calls in which a voice moans and mutters incomprehensibly. Her neighbors have seen lights, hear loud noises, suffer power cuts. Kathie's abductions, as we have seen, were reminiscent of shamanic initiation ordeals. Moreover, she seems to have displayed the shamanic temperament, which is often characterized by sudden or chronic illness (Kathie suffered everything from high blood pressure, hepatitis, and pneumonia to allergic reactions to medicines, asthmatic attacks, irregular heartbeats, anxiety, and insomnia). Thus it may well be said that those we call "psychic" have a shamanic vocation. But since our culture lacks a shamanic tradition, a Daimonic framework to shape and channel psychic abilities, they remain underdeveloped, untrained, and uncontrolled. Modern ecstatic otherworld journeys are rarely recognized as opportunities for self-transformation and rebirth, but are merely frightening, mystifying, and open to misinterpretation." It's a fascinating book and has actually helped me in some areas. Going back to your children - has your oldest experienced night terrors or just your youngest?
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Post by Innermind on Jun 11, 2013 13:22:33 GMT -6
That sounds very interesting - I've never heard of that before. Can you buy it on Amazon? I would never myself have put these incidents together like that at all. What exactly is Daimonic Reality?
Not so much, she was very difficult when my youngest was born and would refuse to sleep. There is a three year age gap between them both and for the next eighteen months after his birth I barley slept - to be honest I put it down to jealousy and tried to ensure she felt loved and supported.
She does have vivid dreams and likes to discuss them with me, but there's nothing I can think of.
I do occasionally hear the kids footsteps upstairs, when they're not there. I've caught myself a few times telling them to quieten down only to realise that they are at their Dad's for the weekend.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 11, 2013 13:34:49 GMT -6
That sounds very interesting - I've never heard of that before. Can you buy it on Amazon? I would never myself have put these incidents together like that at all. What exactly is Daimonic Reality? Not so much, she was very difficult when my youngest was born and would refuse to sleep. There is a three year age gap between them both and for the next eighteen months after his birth I barley slept - to be honest I put it down to jealousy and tried to ensure she felt loved and supported. She does have vivid dreams and likes to discuss them with me, but there's nothing I can think of. I do occasionally hear the kids footsteps upstairs, when they're not there. I've caught myself a few times telling them to quieten down only to realise that they are at their Dad's for the weekend. Yeah, you can buy it on Amazon. What he calls "Daimonic Reality" is actually a very old concept. Basically, everything deemed otherworldly, such as bigfoot, fairies, UFOs, and white ladies, all come from a reality that is separate and yet tied to this one. He attempts to write a book about all the weird in the world and does a wonderful job, I think. That's interesting about your oldest. I know that you already know this, but continue to allow her to tell you her dreams. Speaking for myself, I was told that such things weren't important or real. Who decides what's "real"? It seems we cross a threshold where we forget that our experiences as children are important just as the ones we have now.
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Post by Innermind on Jun 11, 2013 13:42:09 GMT -6
Thank you for that. I will be having a look for the book. I do like to think I'm open with her without leading her to specific topics, I know she believes in angels she's told me as much. I just hope that whatever is happening with me will leave them alone.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 11, 2013 13:50:45 GMT -6
Thank you for that. I will be having a look for the book. I do like to think I'm open with her without leading her to specific topics, I know she believes in angels she's told me as much. I just hope that whatever is happening with me will leave them alone. I do hope so as well. However, I "know" that if I was to ever have children, it would be passed on to them. As far as I'm aware, my other siblings haven't had the experiences that I've had. I'm going to go for now since I've got to get ready for work. It was nice talking with you, Innermind. There are others here that can definitely help you in other areas that I cannot. I'll be talking with you soon.
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Post by Innermind on Jun 11, 2013 13:57:21 GMT -6
And thank you for listening to me. It's late here and I have an early start so I'll bid you goodnight. I am interested to hear about the abuse too, I did read your threads and I think it's worth talking about. There's too many coincidences that I can't shake - thank you for taking me seriously it's helped more than you know.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 12, 2013 2:52:25 GMT -6
And thank you for listening to me. It's late here and I have an early start so I'll bid you goodnight. I am interested to hear about the abuse too, I did read your threads and I think it's worth talking about. There's too many coincidences that I can't shake - thank you for taking me seriously it's helped more than you know. It's appreciated, Innermind. I have no problem with discussing it, so whatever questions that you have, I'd be happy to answer them. You can ask me here or you can PM me. Either way is fine with me. What do you mean by coincidences?
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Post by Innermind on Jun 13, 2013 4:30:53 GMT -6
Hi Wish. When I read through your posts I see that you suffered a bad childhood with abuse. I did too but mine is different, is this the norm with others have you found? Also I read a book by Chuck Weiss that details the incidents that he went through. I could identify the beginning of the book but later on I couldn't get to grips with it. At first he's scared and worried (who wouldn't be) then later on he not only comes to accept them and their influence in his life but thinks that a secret government agency is not only keeping tabs on him but re-abducting him. In the end he is much more spiritual about his experiences and from what I've read on the internet, it seems that this is widely experienced by others. But what of those who are already spiritual that hates what's happening to them?
Did you ever find the woman that you were strongly connected too?
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Post by Morgan Sierra on Jun 13, 2013 9:40:44 GMT -6
Unhappy childhoods and/or abuse does seem to be one of the things that many of the experiencers here have in common with one another. So does the tendency to become more spiritual about things after a while. I don't know if this is common to all experiencers or just those here on the forum. We are all still trying to figure things out ourselves but the similarities that many of the people here share are pretty remarkable. We never would have known if we had not started sharing experiences and knowledge with one another. Welcome to the forum.
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Post by Innermind on Jun 13, 2013 9:49:39 GMT -6
Hi Morgan, I must admit I have felt daft thinking something had happened to me. Purely because life as I knew it- well this doesn't happen. It's been great to speak about it instead of letting things 'bottle up'. I'm just reading a few books at the moment that are eye openers. It's nice to be part of a community that understands. As much as I love my friends and family, I know if I spoke to them about what I think has happened they would be booking me into the nearest mental hospital sharpish.
Yet, if I mention the spirits and psychic things that have happened to me they would accept that. (Before the very vivid weird dream-I spoke to them about what I'd seen, felt and heard and they were interested and would listen. If I so much mention ETS- they would scoff).
What has been your experience, if you don't mind me asking?
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Post by Deleted on Jun 13, 2013 11:21:39 GMT -6
Hi Wish. When I read through your posts I see that you suffered a bad childhood with abuse. I did too but mine is different, is this the norm with others have you found? Also I read a book by Chuck Weiss that details the incidents that he went through. I could identify the beginning of the book but later on I couldn't get to grips with it. At first he's scared and worried (who wouldn't be) then later on he not only comes to accept them and their influence in his life but thinks that a secret government agency is not only keeping tabs on him but re-abducting him. In the end he is much more spiritual about his experiences and from what I've read on the internet, it seems that this is widely experienced by others. But what of those who are already spiritual that hates what's happening to them? Did you ever find the woman that you were strongly connected too? That's a good question, Innermind. I honestly think it all depends on your perspective. I'm not going to try to give some "new age" mumbo-jumbo answer because I think a lot of it is garbage. The greys have never told me that they were "benevolent space brothers" here to raise my consciousness to new levels or gave me prophecies about the coming apocalypse, or what message that I needed to tell others. Yes, I was shown horrendous images that definitely affected me and forced to do other things. Do I approve of their methods such as rape, forced abduction, scenes of global devastation, amongst other things? Of course not, but I think that we're missing the point, or at least I know that I was. I know that at least for adults in the US, we as a collective haven't "grown up" and as a result are having to deal with the issues now facing us. Perhaps many are still not dealing with it. That's what happened to me when I "woke up". At one point, I was very blind to many things and possibilities and I was unfortunately very comfortable with it. Even though they had been in my life (probably from the beginning), they made themselves known and allowed me to remember. My view about them is very complicated. How I look at them is probably a bit different than others here. I think that one thing is true in regard to all of this - there are no rights without responsibilities. I think that we have neglected both to each other. Some have said that when abductees come to accept these beings, it's almost like the "Stockholm Syndrome". Perhaps in some cases, but not all of them. I accepted what was happening to me because it reminds me very much of the shaman's initiation ordeal. They (potential shamans) are taken by the "spirits" and are skinned or dismembered and then put back together, but things are altered. They come back to there people and are radically different, but some don't want the "call" at all. Some will do many things to try to thwart the "spirits" from choosing them. As far as those who are already spiritual? I honestly can't say. When they were taking me long before I knew it, I believe that I was deeply spiritual already at that point in my life. Although looking back on it now, like I said above, I was actually blind to many things that with these experiences, changed my worldview forever. No, I didn't find her. I was planning on writing to five more addresses in the UK, one in Cardiff, Wales and four others in England. I had wrote a letter (I think a hand written letter is more personal that way and I like the old ways) for the address in Cardiff, but at the last minute decided to not do it. I threw the addresses and the letter away. I decided that I should just leave it alone. Some people who know my story think that I'm obsessive about it and can't let go, even when it's impossible. I'm unfortunately the kind of person who doesn't give up. Perhaps they are right, it's just that I had to know. All I really wanted to do was meet her. I think that hoping for anything else was/is a fantasy. The other reason was because of the children. Some (the ones who actually believe me) think that the children are with the greys, but I for some reason have a doubt about it. If they are here, I would at least like to see them and not only have them as a memory. But six years is a long time to wait and hope for something that might not ever happen. So after some serious thinking, I decided that whatever happens, happens. I threw the letter and addresses away (even though I really didn't want to) and decided that was it. Lol, that was the whole reason I came to this forum and another before it - I was hoping to find her.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 13, 2013 14:20:27 GMT -6
Thank you so much for posting your story on the forum innermind. It's nice to meet you. This phenomenon is extremely frightening and you are among friends here who understand believe me. I'm sorry I was unable to respond to this thread before but I was clicking on the "participated link" in the upper corner of the forum's home page and it was not showing this thread at all for some reason so I missed it.. (proboards just redid the forum so I'm still orienting myself with the new buttons and stuff...) I was wondering why the forum didn't seem to be very active... thank you Morgan for doing the new new topics button on top of the screen... stoopid proboards!! Anyhow, Innermind, I have suffered from sleep paralysis since I was about 17 years old. Thankfully- I haven't had an extreme episode of it recently. It can be very frightening! That's usually what the skeptics will tell you about this type of thing- they will tell you it is simply a REM sleep disturbance (sleep paralysis) and nothing paranormal in nature... it is simply the mind waking up before the body wakes up so it's literally like waking up while in a nightmare and you are unable to consciously control your body because when you go off to sleep your brain disconnects itself from your body as a defense mechanism to prevent you from acting our your dreams and potentially harming yourself... ...however... Long before I was having this sleep paralysis problem in my late teens up until recently I had an encounter with The Grays when I was only 8 years old. Skeptics will brush that incident off as "sleep paralysis" but I know it wasn't a bad dream- it actually happened. I woke up after having fallen asleep on the sofa in the living room paralyzed and saw grays standing around in my living room. It wasn't a nightmare. I was traumatized from it so terribly and nobody would listen to me about what had happened they all told me it was just a bad dream forget about it but I knew that it had not been a dream. Sometimes as an experiencer it can be difficult to distinguish vivid or lucid dreams from reality... sometimes though it's extremely obvious...
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Post by Innermind on Jun 13, 2013 15:00:39 GMT -6
Wish - I really Hope you don't give up. I personally believe this woman is meant to help. So if I can help I will and being in Sunny England I will do what I can. I myself have been on my own for a lot longer than you and to have that connection with/without the Greys I think is a big deal. So if you want help let me know. Lorelei thank you for welcoming me. I have NEVER suffered from sleep paralysis before up until that night and it scared me. The sensation put me in mind of just before you're put to sleep before an operation and that's what I fought against. What scared me was I was in my own bed and the bloody (excuse me) spindly arms that were a grey/blue and the portal? It's hard because looking back it's like I've taken mind altering drugs (which as a mother I can swear I haven't)- Wish and Lorelei do you both suffer from PTSD? From the books I'm reading it's a classic sign of abductees. Does this make sense? Sorry my answers are short I'm making tea
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Post by Deleted on Jun 13, 2013 16:47:32 GMT -6
Wish - I really Hope you don't give up. I personally believe this woman is meant to help. So if I can help I will and being in Sunny England I will do what I can. I myself have been on my own for a lot longer than you and to have that connection with/without the Greys I think is a big deal. So if you want help let me know. Lorelei thank you for welcoming me. I have NEVER suffered from sleep paralysis before up until that night and it scared me. The sensation put me in mind of just before you're put to sleep before an operation and that's what I fought against. What scared me was I was in my own bed and the bloody (excuse me) spindly arms that were a grey/blue and the portal? It's hard because looking back it's like I've taken mind altering drugs (which as a mother I can swear I haven't)- Wish and Lorelei do you both suffer from PTSD? From the books I'm reading it's a classic sign of abductees. Does this make sense? Sorry my answers are short I'm making tea Tea sounds good! When I was in Worcester, I made it a point to have tea at every meal. One thing I had some difficultly with was that I'm an iced tea drinker and that was near impossible to find. I felt guilty for drinking it when I actually found a bottle, so I stuck with the traditional and I quite like it. To answer your other question, I did have PTSD, or at least many of the symptoms for a long time. When I came to terms with all of this, it went away.
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Post by Innermind on Jun 14, 2013 0:47:15 GMT -6
I can't say I've ever had Iced Tea- I'm sure they sell it somewhere here but I haven't seen any in the local shops. That's good that the symptoms stopped. Has anyone ever recorded their night time abductions? I must admit I've been thinking of using my laptop to try and do it to see if anything does happen.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 14, 2013 0:49:38 GMT -6
Welcome Innermind Your dream sounds real to me. That it is remembered as "fragmented" and you can't forget it ( sounds very familiar). Let's presume that this kind of thing has been happening (as horrible as that sounds, sorry!). Is there anything else that may be a reference point to why you awakened (and remembered) during this encounter?
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Post by Deleted on Jun 14, 2013 1:31:45 GMT -6
I can't say I've ever had Iced Tea- I'm sure they sell it somewhere here but I haven't seen any in the local shops. That's good that the symptoms stopped. Has anyone ever recorded their night time abductions? I must admit I've been thinking of using my laptop to try and do it to see if anything does happen. You can make your own iced tea too- all you have to do is brew it hot and then pour it in a pitcher filled with ice, then put it in the fridge. My mother makes it all the time. I do suffer from PTSD. I was diagnosed with it when I was about 14 years old... I was in a hospital at the time because of emotional problems I was having at that age (I started smoking and cutting myself back then and my parents were worried...). They decided the reason why I behaved that way was because I had been bullied in elementary school. People have tried to record them before. I tried for awhile if you're interested in reading about it it's Lorelei's Night Camera Journal under close encounters on the edge on here. I gave up on it because it was freaking me out a little too much... Most of the time when people set up cameras to watch them while they sleep the camera will mysteriously shut off right before an abduction happens. The grays seem to have a technology which enables them to shut off cameras and other recording devices- even cell phones. A lot of experiencers report that their phone was fully charged before an experience and afterward the battery was completely dead. Same thing with camcorders....
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Post by Innermind on Jun 14, 2013 3:10:02 GMT -6
Thanks ~lorelei~ I will try that. I actually found some bottled ice tea so I'm going to try it. I'm so sorry you had to go through that, being a teenager is difficult enough without the abductions. I can't imagine how you must have felt- where you able to talk to someone about your experiences back then? I will definitely have a look at what you've put up, I'm thinking if I do manage it maybe I can prove to myself I'm not going mad as I still can't quite wrap my head around it fully. Does that make sense? Hi jcurio and thank you. I know I have always believed that there is other intelligent life out there. I have never questioned it, it's just been a belief from the get go. I would say in the last six months to twelve months my obsession as I feel that's what it is has driven me to find out more about UFOS. The 'dream' happened last month, and it freaked me out. As for a long long time, I've had the feeling someone's in my room. And many times I've got up switched the lights on, checked the kids are asleep, checked the doors to make sure they're locked and still couldn't settle asleep. I have never before experienced sleep paralysis and when I awoke, it wasn't so much the arms holding me down but the 'portal?' that was coming out of the wall - it was a silver vortex that swirled inwards. I remember being so frightened and saying no. I have no idea why I awoke when I did and I'm still trying to think why I awoke when I did but nothing is coming to me. This is why I'm half convinced it was a dream if only it didn't frighten me so much. And the male voice that spoke to me, even now in broad daylight when I think of that voice it scares me. The voice was in my head but external from me. It's the fear that makes me wonder about it all. I mean I'm a grown woman, I have no mental health issues unless you count depression on occasion. I came across a check list on another website about if you've been abducted and I scored 38 out of 58. Here's the link www.aliensthetruth.com/Aliens.php?ID=54 A huge part of me is thinking I may have dreamt this all up? That's why I'm looking for answers.
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Post by Innermind on Jun 14, 2013 5:01:35 GMT -6
Okay this sounds strange but the side of my right jaw is sore- Never noticed it this morning when getting myself and the kids ready. I've just made myself some dinner (I never eat breakfast) and the back side of the bottom right hand side of my teeth are sore almost as if I've been clenching/grinding my teeth. I used the other side of my mouth to eat and now my right side is in pain. Has that happened to anyone else? The pain is reaching my right ear and slightly down my neck.
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