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Post by paulette on May 25, 2021 20:16:04 GMT -6
I’ve seen 4 UAPS lately. In broad daylight. Both days were perfect weather: 60-70 degrees and very few clouds 🤗. I don’t know if I will be “allowed” to talk about my sightings. 😊🤷🏼♀️ What are UAPS???
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Post by jcurio on May 30, 2021 5:26:06 GMT -6
unidentified aerial phenomena (UAP)
(Hi Paulette. Its a terminology that I am not familiar with, also)
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Post by jcurio on May 30, 2021 5:33:35 GMT -6
www.nih.gov/news-events/news-releases/scientists-discover-brain-cells-compete-sustain-or-suppress-traumatic-memories______________________________ News release? The “public” is just being informed 20 or so years after the fact. 😁 Can I Prove that my “traumatic memories” are already near extinction? No. But I believe that us humans also feel a profound sense of loss when our brains are “wiped”. I think that it would take a lot of time and effort to screen individual humans memories of traumatic events (including “alien” abduction and experiments). When we are “scrubbed”, we lose a lot more than the trauma.
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Post by jcurio on May 30, 2021 5:46:27 GMT -6
Note:
A lot of the postings on my previous “page” here, on this thread, are from my past . TEOR does not put below these posts WHEN I copied or “quoted” these posts from another page. ?
Sorry for any confusion…
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Post by jcurio on Jun 2, 2021 5:38:15 GMT -6
. In his place, however, was something else: it was a large, black dog with bright red eyes. It snapped and snarled in Pauline’s direction and in what was clearly a deeply malevolent, dangerous fashion. She stared in horror as the glowing-eyed monster prowled around the yard, clearly intent on adding to the malevolent atmosphere that was already firmly in place.
(It seems, that even copying and pasting from another thread doesnt show where this comes from either. ??)
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Post by jcurio on Aug 26, 2021 15:18:08 GMT -6
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Post by jcurio on Aug 27, 2021 8:23:54 GMT -6
The test kits started going out in 2014. 😉
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Post by jcurio on Aug 30, 2021 20:15:57 GMT -6
Before I explain the above (2) posts, let me acknowledge how “ confused “ I am in this moment.
Right now, my home clock in front of me says its 9:13 pm, Monday, August 30, 2021.
That makes it 6:43 am, August 31, 2021 in Kabul, Afghanistan.
So how can reporters, tv, internet, etc., say that our last American troops left Kabul at midnight August 31, 2021?
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Post by jcurio on Sept 1, 2021 8:51:14 GMT -6
The above, has been explained. 🧐😃
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Post by jcurio on Sept 1, 2021 13:10:35 GMT -6
_______________ Ok, if you read this page on reddit, it is a story of a missing child. The story could have been fabricated by the child, except for an incident that happened to the grandma in the same area; some time earlier. What was especially strange about the story, was the part where the child was asked to poop on a piece of paper (the child couldn’t do it). Maybe, the strangest part of the story, is the actual truth of the story. That the rest is a mess of scared, jumbled up memories,,but the child IS ASKED to poop on a piece of paper… ……… Now forward to today. How many of you have received a “kit” for collecting your own poop at home to send to the lab? How are you asked to collect it? 😉
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Post by jcurio on Sept 11, 2021 6:27:07 GMT -6
You ponder good questions. Maybe it should be enough that these things did happen and for some people it IS enough. They don't look for answers because they don't need them...they don't crave them. Me..I want to know all of the things I know are here but don't have the right eyes to see. I want to know the things that are wayyyy out there..see the most beautiful thing in the universe. I want to see forward uh..before I'm actually there..while I'm still of this earth. Those are the things I want so much to know. I can't see that it would help me feel better to know who killed the Kennedys or what they aren't saying about the twin towers or if the good ole government knows what aliens are up to with abductions. I won't like the answers any better I'm sure. I'd just be angry all over again and I don't want to be angry any more. I want a peaceful journey...happy soul..and hopefully on the 'other' side I'll find I'm still me. ________________________ I put this here today, first of all, because I was having a hard time finding anything about todays date and the twin towers, here on TEOR. I put it in the search engine. I’m mystified. Surely, we talked about it more?
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Post by paulette on Sept 11, 2021 9:28:37 GMT -6
I remember 11 - 11 -11 as the day that I truly believed me were going to die. The whole planet. That some meaty hand would descent on a red button in the USA and the birds of destruction would fly back and forth until it was finished here. I am American (long gone by still, raised American). When the pentagon got hit? Game over. I felt deeply traumatized by seeing the raw footage of the planes hitting the towers.
I woke my pricky teenaged daughter up and told her to come to the living room. We watched two people holding hands, jump from high up to their deaths. We watched in silence. I called a man that I had had a deep but unhealthy relationship with (he was a life-long maintenance alcoholic) that in truth I had loved him but had to go. I just wanted him to know...
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Post by jcurio on Sept 14, 2021 5:33:09 GMT -6
This morning I woke up, and after a while, thought of the words “it’s all coming back to me now”. 😉
Then I used my trusty cell phone to get on the internet to look up the song.
I watched a remixed, remastered version by that popular singer, on vevo. And, could only watch it for a few minutes…… the star of the video is depicting “being in love, and still loving a ghost”.
Eek!
Here are some of those lyrics to a song I used to like:
Baby baby If I kiss you like this And if you whisper like that It was lost long ago But it's all coming back to me If you want me like this And if you need me like that It was dead long ago But it's all coming back to me It's so hard to resist And it's all coming back to me I can barely recall But it's all coming back to me now But it's all coming back There were those empty threats and hollow lies And whenever you tried to hurt me….
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Post by jcurio on Sept 14, 2021 5:49:59 GMT -6
I’m more than a little “creeped out” (the post directly before this one about a song).
I’m older, hopefully wiser, and I have grandchildren. How would that song and video influence my grandkids?? _____________________________
Suddenly, I don’t think things are so “funny” any more. Sure, I will still try to make jokes and make people laugh, but I had a hard realization yesterday……
And its all coming back to me. Now. Again. (And I might forget again tomorrow). ____________________________
I started this “space” on TEOR for a reason. A reason long forgotten 😉.
But guess what? Even though I got on the Muffin thread years later, all of THIS, the start of me writing again, getting on touch with who I really was, HAPPENED, because of strange dreams and circumstances that happened a few weeks before 9/11/01.
I’m still mystified at my search the other day for posts about this date. I KNOW I talked about it, on here. My premonitions and such. How it affected me deeply….
Trying to think what i would have used to refer to this date, when I was fearful about mentioning it on the internet…. 🤷🏼♀️
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Post by jcurio on Sept 14, 2021 5:57:12 GMT -6
I know that I am rambling and jumping from subject to subject on here (TEOR).
How long will it take my mind to settle again? I’ve been through this process before…. The remembering of bits and pieces of my life that maybe i don’t want to? But I need to.
To be able to move on. To grow up.
I’m not drinking alcohol while going thru this process. 🤗
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Post by paulette on Sept 15, 2021 14:59:35 GMT -6
I'm doing some scant drinking jcurio. But basically, not. My strange dance of finding things (perhaps prompt by the spirit of my death husband) continues. Last night, I lit a candle for him and poured a drop of his favorite honey mead in a tiny glass for him. I found some old photos - of his life before we. I looked at them, looking only for him. There were packages and packages of pictures of kids. His kids. Other people's kids.
But there he was. young, buff, smiling his smile, facing the camera and me years and years later. He was shining through.
Tears. But I regret none of them. I basically had it all - a man who cherished me and indulged me with many rockhounding trips when, towards the end, he was so tired. We didn't know why. It never showed up in his annual blood work. He would drive slowly along a logging road and I would walk, eyes on the ditch. We'd bump home, a new load of stuff he'd have to figure out where to put in the yard. He'd unpack the Toyota and finally come in and sit down wearily. Sometimes we'd both sleep in our side by side reclining chairs. Finally I'd make some supper.
Now I don't cook. I don't care if I eat or not - haven't yet today except a cup of tumeric latte milk.
I know I'll pull out eventually. I'll stop weeping over slips of paper that showed when we had eaten pizza. When we'd taken a ferry for a days outing.
But not yet.
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Post by jcurio on Sept 30, 2021 6:16:36 GMT -6
“not everyone knows what goes on behind the scenes” _____________________________________
Ask yourself, is this a positive statement to you, or a negative one? (Note to self)
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Post by jcurio on Sept 30, 2021 6:43:12 GMT -6
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Post by jcurio on Sept 30, 2021 6:56:17 GMT -6
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Post by jcurio on Sept 30, 2021 7:37:01 GMT -6
Watch patient 17……. 🤷🏼♀️
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Post by jcurio on Sept 30, 2021 7:42:34 GMT -6
Is, my friend, Invader25 = Patient17
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Post by jcurio on Sept 30, 2021 7:47:16 GMT -6
I am trying to leave “bread crumbs” for myself.
Knowing, that someday, many years from now, I will return to this subject. 😉
The best way to put it is: I believe that my “memory” of such things, is being “typically” erased.
First, my dreams are being erased; forgotten ( but stored somewhere).
This is not entirely unpleasant. I am so tired of being tired….. ☺️
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Post by paulette on Oct 1, 2021 12:31:11 GMT -6
I don't want a thumbs up. I want a crying meme. Your last two statements were so sad they tumbled me.
"First, my dreams are being erased; forgotten ( but stored somewhere).
This is not entirely unpleasant. I am so tired of being tired…"
This, for different reasons is so accurate of my husband's last year. I went through his wallet and a found last slips of paper with our address, phone number and my cell (which was rarely turned on). But then, smaller and smaller pieces of paper. That only had my name on them...
He was forgetting everything - and knew it. He didn't want to lose my name.
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Post by jcurio on Oct 2, 2021 10:23:00 GMT -6
I don't want a thumbs up. I want a crying meme. Your last two statements were so sad they tumbled me. "First, my dreams are being erased; forgotten ( but stored somewhere). This is not entirely unpleasant. I am so tired of being tired…" This, for different reasons is so accurate of my husband's last year. I went through his wallet and a found last slips of paper with our address, phone number and my cell (which was rarely turned on). But then, smaller and smaller pieces of paper. That only had my name on them... He was forgetting everything - and knew it. He didn't want to lose my name. Oh Paulette! How to answer this !? (And conveying to you, that when I wrote the 2 sentences that you mentioned above, and left it on here, I had a stab of pain for how those sentences might be perceived). 😩
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Post by jcurio on Oct 2, 2021 10:59:00 GMT -6
A lot of my “dreams” need to be erased. 🤔
Where did they take me? On a trip to nowhere….
Many of them, were very personal, and they somehow “kept me safe” (or sane 🤗🤣). But in the big scope of life, did sharing my thoughts and dreams on here, help anyone else?
Thats the big question…..
Forgetting things is a normal part of life. I forget that my mom has a doctors appointment, or that I planned to text my son 10 minutes ago….
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Post by jcurio on Oct 2, 2021 11:06:55 GMT -6
Anyway, over the past 13 years or so, I have spent a great amount of time pondering my scary dreams.
So much so, that having a “normal” dream is such joy 😉. Suddenly, I am having more of those “normal” dreams….. If I think, and talk about these dreams more, will my life FEEL more normal?
(Isnt THAT an interesting thought)
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Post by jcurio on Oct 22, 2021 9:01:49 GMT -6
51 years ago today, was my first remembered “alien experience”.
I can’t ever forget it, because today is also my only sisters birthday.
Last year (of course) was the 50th anniversary, and my dad had died a few weeks before.
This year, my dads brother has died of a stroke in September, 2021.
This uncle of mine? Is the one that an alien “impersonated” when taking me from a bedroom, this day, 51 years ago. ______________________________
So very weird.
And I have this type of “timing” weirdness, all throughout my life.
I don’t know what it “means”; if anything. The only recognition I choose to give about planning my life, is the Holy Trinity. God the FATHER, Jesus Christ the SON, Holy Ghost the COMFORTER.
Enough said. 🤗
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Post by jcurio on Oct 29, 2021 5:56:07 GMT -6
A week later. From my last post. 😊 __________________
I just re-read this “page” on TEOR. Somehow, I feel, indifferent, to everything in this page. Except…… what Paulette is going thru. 😩😢
Well, not quite….. theres’ also a post from Jo on here. I do miss Jo. ___________________
Now, to go back and read the articles that I “highlighted” myself to read (on this same page).
🤷🏼♀️
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Post by jcurio on Oct 29, 2021 6:08:53 GMT -6
Unbelievable” is not a word you’d expect to be used in a press release from the military, let alone one from an Air Force base so closely tied to Project Blue Book and other secret UFO projects. Yet that is exactly the word Dr. Christopher Tabor, lead research scientist at Air Force Research Laboratory, used to describe the properties of Polymerized Liquid Metal Networks, a new material developed by the lab while researching new ways to make next-generation wearable electronics that won’t weaken when the body it surrounds stretches or bends, and will retain all of its conductivity properties under the same stresses. Wow
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Post by jcurio on Oct 29, 2021 6:13:28 GMT -6
__________________ Now, when YOU read this article, note any blue words in the article. You can click on a blue word, and be taken to another place to read (about that highlighted word). Click on the blue “Deep know” 🤗. Off you go! (Going deeper into this “discussion”. A very deep “rabbit hole”. 🤣).
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