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Post by paulette on Sept 2, 2017 12:18:27 GMT -6
I have entered into a new state of mind - OK it's been coming on for over a year but I'm just now realizing that its not a passing "fancy" of mine.
I am withdrawing from the world--mostly.
Oh I have some friends and I see them sometimes. I called a very old (and aged) friend in the USA this morning. It was good. But by the time I hung up (gently) I had had enough. My relationships with people don't seem to nourish me as much as they once did. I don't ask as many questions and I definitely don't offer as many (probably useless) answers.
I want to be alone. (I feel alone writing this).
I want to read, to write, and to have the luxury of silence. I drive off in my car and just sit or read or even nap. No one to ask me anything or remind me that I didn't submit some stupid piece of paper to someone who probably won't read it anyway.
It's time to heal myself. I need aloneness to do that.
I'm not surprised that I no longer have UFOish experiences. I don't want to meet with them. I have nothing further to show or tell them. Maybe they get that.
Some might say that I am depressed. But I have to say, I ENJOY being alone, writing alone, reading alone.
So it goes. Not sure what use I can be to this group but I'll check in now and then.
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Post by skywalker on Sept 3, 2017 4:42:01 GMT -6
I hope you find your happiness, Paulette. Whether alone or not, it's out there somewhere.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 24, 2017 1:35:28 GMT -6
I am very much that way too Paulette..I have no problem keeping my own company..I LIKE being alone with my thoughts. Sometimes just to sit and think of nothing just listening to my wind chimes..just 'being'. You're re-inventing yourself..we all do every so often..I'm in that process too and people don't much understand why..they figure I'm dingy because of my husband passing. Nah..I was ready for that a long time ago..but when you've been tied to someone that long..working to keep him happy or at least placated..it becomes more than an occupation..it is you..and now..I have to find who I am underneath all of the faces I've put on for so many people for so long. I don't know what I'll find. I'm not very patient right now..I'm more edgy..waiting. It will come..I'll be shown/led/find what it is I'm hunting and you will too. Alone..you're in good company
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Post by jcurio on Sept 26, 2017 10:55:25 GMT -6
I want to be alone. (I feel alone writing this). Read more: theedgeofreality.proboards.com/thread/7285/best-friends-ah-paranormal#ixzz4tnqMx1pK********* I thought that "my time in aloneness" was kind of forced upon me (contagious illness, busy with major family issues; etc.). I keep getting precious memory back. Not always great memories. But precious. When I first got out of my horrible marriage for real, I did make an effort to make some close friends then also, in a "church community". I DO have a couple of friends from that time. One of them "prophesied" over me that I needed to spend some time alone- that I was going to get some "great one-on-one time with God". I didn't believe her and may have laughed internally. 🙁. I didn't ask for her "bit of wisdom", and in fact, during this time that she spoke this "over me", she claimed that she herself was in a season where she wasn't hearing God's voice........ I, at the time, was starting to date again and resented this "appeal"... . . Awwwww. All these years later ( 14 !!!) I wish that I had taken her "advice" sooner! But ultimately, I made the choice to "hunker down to hermit status". And now I am free, and can look back at it and understand why it was so important. And can still want it about every other day. 😊 As hard as it was, I was never REALLY isolated on an island. I had you guys! And I had that "greater" relationship to develop with my Maker and myself! For some reason, some of us get to CHOOSE to slowly "fade out" for a bit. Others, well, they "go" kicking and screaming, overdosing, nervous breakdown, causing casualties, and some how THATS become the norm in getting TIME for yourself?? A vacation here and there just doesn't give a person that true down-time.... I think that it's all a choice, Paulette. A little prodding to go a different direction isn't always pleasant.
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