Post by CitizenK on Jun 3, 2013 0:11:38 GMT -6
I have really struggled over this for a couple of days trying to make sense of it all in my own head. Now, I am ready to share with the group...
Last Wednesday night I grew tired quite earlier than normal (around 1am) , as I went to bed I had "that" sensation (the electrical one) and fear grew over me. Nevertheless I lay down, the feel of exhaustion was overwhelming (as we are all familiar with)...I woke around 5am from jerking in my sleep as if I were dropped , as we've discussed before. Like I was thrown into bed. I went to the restroom and through water in my face. I had had a very awful dream, about aliens (lil grey guys) I woke at 7:35am to my husband's panicked voice. He was on the phone with his boss stating that he didn't know what had happened but he was on his way. He is usually up by 5:20am to go to work. Again, so exhausted that I fell back to sleep rather than speak to him. I finally awoke at noon! My kids were all still asleep, which I found to be very weird and worrisome because the 2 younger ones are always up to watch cartoons early...so I rushed to their rooms to check on them. They are there, asleep. I wake them and go to make coffee. I felt odd, something was "off" , I had this horrible feeling that something was either wrong or about to go wrong. As I sat there I reflected on this dream I had last night, when I had gotten up and went back to bed at 5am , the dream didn't pick up where I left off upon waking, it replayed...over and over again. As the day progressed I continued feeling badly, almost like I had the flu. My older daughter came to tell me something 'weird' happened to her last night. She had went into her big closet (where she meditates to block out house noises) to meditate around 12:30am, she had left her light on, her computer, and her door was shut...when she came out of the closet it was because she had awakened from apparently falling asleep in there, it was 5am. Her computer was dead, light was off, and door was wide open. She asked if I did these things...I said no, I was in bed by 1am. Both of my younger kids were extremely irritable all day. And that night as I put them to bed , complete fear came over my 13 yr. old...she was terrified to go to bed, "something" was making a humming noise that scared her to pieces..the sound was actually just her fan, but the sound terrifying her alarmed me. In my dream, I was trying to save her and her lil brother from the light that beams you up. I was screaming don't let them take the children as I ran to them, only to realize that my husband and oldest daughter were already aboard the ship. They had taken them first! It was up to me alone to save the kids and protect them and then the dream changes and we end up in a different scene and were are tethered together (me and the 2 smaller children) in blackness with water rushing in all around us...
I couldn't quite put my finger on all of it until I was sitting outside in the quiet the next evening thinking about this dream that I couldn't get off of my mind, like I needed to learn something from it. I don't "dream" of aliens, unless...I've been taken. I don't feel like 'this' unless I've been taken, my children's behavior and the things that happened in the older ones room, all seem to point to us being taken. But what about my husband? Other the alarm clock not going off on time, and him being late for work was there anything significant of him that I could say contributes to this notion??? He gets home from work that evening as I sat outside, and he walks over and sits down beside me. He says immediately, "you know, the inside of my nose way up in there hurts really bad and I keep trying to blow whatever it is out but it won't budge...I've never had pain like this in my nose before". I was floored. I reach over and feel the bridge of his nose , you can feel a small bb type thing up inside just under the skin. He's been implanted! He then asked me what is wrong with me, I've been sortof in a fog for a couple of days now, so I tell him what I think is going on. Knowing that he isn't usually very receptive to this kind of talk, I was prepared to be told I am making too much out of it. TO my surprise, he did just the opposite! He asked why they would just now take him after all this time we've been together and did I manage to save the kids...I didn't know how to answer either question. I'd have to say from their emotional state that I didn't save them and I can't think of why they wouldn't take my husband before but decide to now...except, he has learned to meditate and tap into his own psychic powers and lately has gotten really strong in this practice and has had time to actually use it since he is now finished with school. SO maybe this is why they are just now taking him??? I don't know, but that is my best guess. Perhaps it was for a new model of implant, I say this because my oldest daughter and I both now have a tiny bb in the exact same place and on the same arm. Left arm right beneath the bend of the elbow. It moves if you push on it to find it. And my husband asked me how they would get those in our arm without a mark there, and my immediate answer was, "haven't you heard of nano technology? They put it in through one of your orifices and then it goes where they want it to be." I have no clue where I got that from and I was as shocked as him (more so actually) to have said such a thing. (My husband actually says that makes perfect sense)
I'd like to also mention that I normally do not feel sore from working out for a couple of days after doing so , but I haven't been lifting weights lately okay. My shoulders were so tense that day and my biceps hurt to use them as if I had been lifting , but the most strenuous thing I had done was a frost kit for my daughter. And my throat and chest hurt as if I'd been screaming and/or yelling a lot. Not to mention the nether regions feeling quite sore for no reason, as if I have had a bicycle accident or rode a horse far too long! Oh yes, and my hair was singed as if it is burnt, like from fire or a cigarette but that hasn't happened either...I think maybe being under the craft is what caused this and the severe ill affects. (In the dream I was standing under a huge craft holding on to my 2 younger kids and while looking up at it I was aware that there were a lot of human people in it, that had been taken all at once.
I am now having trouble sleeping until very late, after the 'witching hours" have past. My unexplainable anxiety attacks are also back, in full swing, complete with the 'paranoia' that comes from a close encounter.
I don't know what to make of all of this. It certainly seems that they have come yet again, and it hasn't been that long since the last visits, while we were living in the camper still waiting on the house. (Nov.-Jan. events)
One more thing I'd like to add. Remember me telling you of the strange muscle knots I have in each bicep awhile back? It's a know in my muscle that is so tight that it caused the muscle next to it to indent like a dimple and appears to be slightly bruised at all times....They are now shrinking very quickly all of the sudden and there are pin hole marks with a tiny scab on each one as if they were pricked or something. But they are going away, completely. For whatever reason, and it just started Thursday. I've said before I don't believe in coincidences, so I must through it in the mix with all this other stuff.
I don't believe they are here to hurt us, I still stand by that. But obviously even with that belief, the idea of them taking my family is still quite disturbing to me. I really just wanted to share this with the group for moral support I guess. I know there isn't anything anyone can do to stop it, and honestly, I don't know that we even should if we could...I am still a believer that this is for a good reason, I just still have a hard time dealing with it when it's my turn (or my family's) to go again. Human instincts, what else can I say?
I'm sure there is still more to remember but I haven't tried to focus on it yet, I'm trying to allow it to come through with easing my anxiety instead of via meditation this time. I will keep you posted.
Last Wednesday night I grew tired quite earlier than normal (around 1am) , as I went to bed I had "that" sensation (the electrical one) and fear grew over me. Nevertheless I lay down, the feel of exhaustion was overwhelming (as we are all familiar with)...I woke around 5am from jerking in my sleep as if I were dropped , as we've discussed before. Like I was thrown into bed. I went to the restroom and through water in my face. I had had a very awful dream, about aliens (lil grey guys) I woke at 7:35am to my husband's panicked voice. He was on the phone with his boss stating that he didn't know what had happened but he was on his way. He is usually up by 5:20am to go to work. Again, so exhausted that I fell back to sleep rather than speak to him. I finally awoke at noon! My kids were all still asleep, which I found to be very weird and worrisome because the 2 younger ones are always up to watch cartoons early...so I rushed to their rooms to check on them. They are there, asleep. I wake them and go to make coffee. I felt odd, something was "off" , I had this horrible feeling that something was either wrong or about to go wrong. As I sat there I reflected on this dream I had last night, when I had gotten up and went back to bed at 5am , the dream didn't pick up where I left off upon waking, it replayed...over and over again. As the day progressed I continued feeling badly, almost like I had the flu. My older daughter came to tell me something 'weird' happened to her last night. She had went into her big closet (where she meditates to block out house noises) to meditate around 12:30am, she had left her light on, her computer, and her door was shut...when she came out of the closet it was because she had awakened from apparently falling asleep in there, it was 5am. Her computer was dead, light was off, and door was wide open. She asked if I did these things...I said no, I was in bed by 1am. Both of my younger kids were extremely irritable all day. And that night as I put them to bed , complete fear came over my 13 yr. old...she was terrified to go to bed, "something" was making a humming noise that scared her to pieces..the sound was actually just her fan, but the sound terrifying her alarmed me. In my dream, I was trying to save her and her lil brother from the light that beams you up. I was screaming don't let them take the children as I ran to them, only to realize that my husband and oldest daughter were already aboard the ship. They had taken them first! It was up to me alone to save the kids and protect them and then the dream changes and we end up in a different scene and were are tethered together (me and the 2 smaller children) in blackness with water rushing in all around us...
I couldn't quite put my finger on all of it until I was sitting outside in the quiet the next evening thinking about this dream that I couldn't get off of my mind, like I needed to learn something from it. I don't "dream" of aliens, unless...I've been taken. I don't feel like 'this' unless I've been taken, my children's behavior and the things that happened in the older ones room, all seem to point to us being taken. But what about my husband? Other the alarm clock not going off on time, and him being late for work was there anything significant of him that I could say contributes to this notion??? He gets home from work that evening as I sat outside, and he walks over and sits down beside me. He says immediately, "you know, the inside of my nose way up in there hurts really bad and I keep trying to blow whatever it is out but it won't budge...I've never had pain like this in my nose before". I was floored. I reach over and feel the bridge of his nose , you can feel a small bb type thing up inside just under the skin. He's been implanted! He then asked me what is wrong with me, I've been sortof in a fog for a couple of days now, so I tell him what I think is going on. Knowing that he isn't usually very receptive to this kind of talk, I was prepared to be told I am making too much out of it. TO my surprise, he did just the opposite! He asked why they would just now take him after all this time we've been together and did I manage to save the kids...I didn't know how to answer either question. I'd have to say from their emotional state that I didn't save them and I can't think of why they wouldn't take my husband before but decide to now...except, he has learned to meditate and tap into his own psychic powers and lately has gotten really strong in this practice and has had time to actually use it since he is now finished with school. SO maybe this is why they are just now taking him??? I don't know, but that is my best guess. Perhaps it was for a new model of implant, I say this because my oldest daughter and I both now have a tiny bb in the exact same place and on the same arm. Left arm right beneath the bend of the elbow. It moves if you push on it to find it. And my husband asked me how they would get those in our arm without a mark there, and my immediate answer was, "haven't you heard of nano technology? They put it in through one of your orifices and then it goes where they want it to be." I have no clue where I got that from and I was as shocked as him (more so actually) to have said such a thing. (My husband actually says that makes perfect sense)
I'd like to also mention that I normally do not feel sore from working out for a couple of days after doing so , but I haven't been lifting weights lately okay. My shoulders were so tense that day and my biceps hurt to use them as if I had been lifting , but the most strenuous thing I had done was a frost kit for my daughter. And my throat and chest hurt as if I'd been screaming and/or yelling a lot. Not to mention the nether regions feeling quite sore for no reason, as if I have had a bicycle accident or rode a horse far too long! Oh yes, and my hair was singed as if it is burnt, like from fire or a cigarette but that hasn't happened either...I think maybe being under the craft is what caused this and the severe ill affects. (In the dream I was standing under a huge craft holding on to my 2 younger kids and while looking up at it I was aware that there were a lot of human people in it, that had been taken all at once.
I am now having trouble sleeping until very late, after the 'witching hours" have past. My unexplainable anxiety attacks are also back, in full swing, complete with the 'paranoia' that comes from a close encounter.
I don't know what to make of all of this. It certainly seems that they have come yet again, and it hasn't been that long since the last visits, while we were living in the camper still waiting on the house. (Nov.-Jan. events)
One more thing I'd like to add. Remember me telling you of the strange muscle knots I have in each bicep awhile back? It's a know in my muscle that is so tight that it caused the muscle next to it to indent like a dimple and appears to be slightly bruised at all times....They are now shrinking very quickly all of the sudden and there are pin hole marks with a tiny scab on each one as if they were pricked or something. But they are going away, completely. For whatever reason, and it just started Thursday. I've said before I don't believe in coincidences, so I must through it in the mix with all this other stuff.
I don't believe they are here to hurt us, I still stand by that. But obviously even with that belief, the idea of them taking my family is still quite disturbing to me. I really just wanted to share this with the group for moral support I guess. I know there isn't anything anyone can do to stop it, and honestly, I don't know that we even should if we could...I am still a believer that this is for a good reason, I just still have a hard time dealing with it when it's my turn (or my family's) to go again. Human instincts, what else can I say?
I'm sure there is still more to remember but I haven't tried to focus on it yet, I'm trying to allow it to come through with easing my anxiety instead of via meditation this time. I will keep you posted.