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Post by jcurio on Sept 30, 2019 5:36:29 GMT -6
I don’t want to go to work today. And I can say that and it doesn’t effect the rest of my day 😊.
Once I get to the first job, I like what I do and “get moving”. It’s that first step out of the house that feels so hard.
And not just because it’s Monday.
I nonchalantly wonder if these are the symptoms of laziness or burnout. And then tell myself that “I think too much”.
The age I am now, and I’m just starting to wonder if I’m truly “lazy”? Lol.
I truly envy those people that get up in the morning and start their day by exercising.....
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Post by paulette on Sept 30, 2019 12:31:56 GMT -6
Maybe I will discuss this later (maybe not). I THINK That with all the “help” I have been seeking, all of my life, at least someone would have asked me if I “suspected schizophrenia”?? Nope. Never. The closest I have come, is some therapist years ago teaching me to listen to my “self-talk” (what I say to myself in my own head, that supposedly no one else can hear). AND I BECAME AWARE THAT SOME OF THE THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD WERE DEFINITELY NOT MINE! It started a “resistance” (on my part). And then, comes the “bad dreams” (where I am obviously vulnerable). So, tonight, it FINALLY happened. Yes, by that I mean, that I openly searched for SOMETHING that sounds similar to what I deal with. So Yes, I wanted something to confirm my bias..... and I have been looking for a long, long time. 😊 So here it is: and like always, it just “fell in my lap” like a gift; so think what you want. Just please, research it if you are able. I think THIS SHOULD MAKE sense, to a lot of suffering people: www.keyholejourney.com/list-of-lies.html[/quoteJ I have had a coice in my head that gives good advice and I have followed it and lessened my bad situation. It is deep, authoritative but not demanding, MALE.
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Post by jcurio on Oct 1, 2019 6:35:00 GMT -6
J I have had a coice in my head that gives good advice and I have followed it and lessened my bad situation. It is deep, authoritative but not demanding, MALE. Read more: theedgeofreality.proboards.com/thread/1418/who-simplistic-solutions-jc?page=111#ixzz616YlbfER_________________ That “authoritative, but undemanding” voice for Me, is also MALE. (Most of the time, I also “recognize” it 😉...... as that proverbial Still, Small, Voice). I can recall several of us, here on TEOR, talking about this same subject (somewhere on here 🤗). It was mentioned that sometimes we heard “a voice” (MALE) with an “English accent”. I occasionally hear the “English accent”.
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Post by jcurio on Oct 1, 2019 6:37:45 GMT -6
Like most things that come into my mind, THE NEXT VOICE I HEAR, is my OWN.
Telling myself : discernment, discernment, discernment.
KNOW, your own voice. 🙂😇
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Post by jcurio on Oct 1, 2019 6:45:46 GMT -6
I’m STILL looking for people that admit that they hear music. 🤣
I think that I am lucky in that respect.... the music is ALWAYS pleasant. Often times uplifting.
I will probably find out some day, that it is how my brain processes NOISE. I can say this comfortably because sometimes the music is just THERE, when a noisy fan is running (not just “white noise” running.... but an old fan), and on the hiwY in traffic; when traffic is running smoothly in both directions. It’s like I have my own “house music” (but not always the same tune 😄).
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Post by jcurio on Oct 1, 2019 7:09:57 GMT -6
Roy Vincent, talks about discernment in his online book that I am trying to quote. He tries to leave “religion” OUT of his musings.
Sometimes, he “seems” to go on and on, lose his train of thought, etc. BUT, if you can stick with it, it makes his “musings” all the more realistic. (I’m sure there are people that skip thru.... which makes it also very cool how the book is presented).
It took me around 2 weeks to read his online book 😉.
Two things (out of many that impressed me) is finding out that he is in his 90’s and still on the ‘Net. His “walk-in” experience must have happened in his 50’s.
Secondly, he has a brother that is in the “religious vocation”. When Mr. Vincent told his brother that he felt a “presence” or “presences” enter his body, his brother shared his own experience with the same FEELING.
It is interesting what his brother says in his response
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Post by paulette on Oct 2, 2019 11:41:49 GMT -6
_________________
I can recall several of us, here on TEOR, talking about this same subject (somewhere on here 🤗). It was mentioned that sometimes we heard “a voice” (MALE) with an “English accent”. I occasionally hear the “English accent”.[/quote]
YES ENGLISH ACCENT!
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Post by jcurio on Oct 3, 2019 18:14:31 GMT -6
Today, I am unreasonably on edge. Can’t think of that other word that is “like” ley lines, but has more to do with water (mainly in the ground).
Roy Bincent talks about these water currents and the “ion effect”. Our bodies are mostly water, so....
Anyway, a weather front has moved in, and I perceptively felt it in my head. A lot of presssure (but not sinus, because I can bend over without extra pain).
I finished my clients for the day, but I have work left to do at home. I’m going to try and sleep for a couple of hours before I try to tackle this home job.
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Post by jcurio on Oct 3, 2019 18:16:13 GMT -6
I can honestly say that I feel *angry* off. Angry. How many people do you know that can go to sleep/seek sleep when they are angry??
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Post by jcurio on Oct 3, 2019 18:16:52 GMT -6
* pi_____d off
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Post by jcurio on Oct 5, 2019 8:53:25 GMT -6
And I slept for 6 hours.
Whoa!
Yesterday I was having a good day, and then another weather front moved in.... head pressure almost instantly. Irritable.
Didn’t have time for a quick nap and somehow pushed through, and had dinner and bible study with friends last night. Glad I went. 🙂
Fall has always been a rough time for me. I’m so glad that now I can relate it to my physical well being. Paying attention to what makes me emotional.
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Post by jcurio on Oct 5, 2019 8:57:04 GMT -6
Jo used to say (not long ago) that these “EBE’s” were attracted by our emotional state.
She never really disclosed how she came to this conclusion, other than a couple of her own experiences.
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Post by jcurio on Oct 5, 2019 9:12:26 GMT -6
Me, I don’t “KNOW” these kinds of things; even with the myriad of experiences that I have had.
Jo saying THAT, to me, sounds like she thought EBE’s were some sort of “energy suckers” (at least that is how I interpret them being “attracted by our emotions”). And then the word “demons” comes to mind. But Jo would NOT call them “demons”.
Posey Gilbert on here, calls these “energy suckers” the Nonts.
I have to realize, that what Jo was saying, is just because “something” may be attracted by our emotions, doesn’t mean that “they” or whatever, has the ability to steal these same emotions. But emotions are strong; we are not talking about bugs being attracted to me because of a fragrance that I have on....
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Post by jcurio on Oct 5, 2019 9:21:23 GMT -6
I’ve said off and on, here on TEOR, that my own mother has the ability to deplete my energy, just with her words.
Why do I allow that? Is it something I can prevent? Especially in this Fall time, do I try to ignore this? Put up walls (and no barbed wire) against her frontal attacks?
I tried to tell her the other day that her words were doing just the opposite of what she wanted to accomplish. She got silent.
This isn’t easy. So imagine me trying to figure out how to ward off EBE’s that are mostly “wordless”. 🙄
What are “THEY”?
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Post by jcurio on Oct 5, 2019 9:33:23 GMT -6
Now, this brings me back to the topic of Roy Vincent’s blog.....
He talks about “the voices” that people hear. He says that these same people feel like their energy is depleted by these “voices”. He even uses the example of his second (rough) marriage.
So now, I’m “watching” for this.... as in, what happens to me physically during and after my dreams at night.
Because, I see no reason for me to have continuing nightmares! (That’s where I got the idea of my dreams being manipulated to keep me in a “down” emotional state).
As I’ve said before, this “tactic” was a lot more “effective” when I was young. It’s a lot easier blowing off bad dreams, now. _____________________
Very few people, talk about their dreams. Much less nightmares. So why do so let my dreams have ANY kind of effect on me?
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Post by jcurio on Oct 5, 2019 10:25:32 GMT -6
I do have work to do at home today..... but obviously feel like being on TEOR.
I will try to keep the “mood” flowing, because it is harder and harder to get on here.....
🤗
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Post by skywalker on Oct 5, 2019 22:42:40 GMT -6
I think what jo meant by them being attracted to our emotions is that emotions tend to amplify our psychic signals. If someone is screaming and crying on the outside their brains are screaming out psychic signals on the inside which is what gets their attention. Kind of like a beacon shining in the dark. I miss jo...
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Post by auntym on Oct 6, 2019 13:22:06 GMT -6
I think what jo meant by them being attracted to our emotions is that emotions tend to amplify our psychic signals. If someone is screaming and crying on the outside their brains are screaming out psychic signals on the inside which is what gets their attention. Kind of like a beacon shining in the dark. I miss jo... i have a feeling she's still here, watching over TEOR...
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Post by jcurio on Oct 7, 2019 5:17:48 GMT -6
I think what jo meant by them being attracted to our emotions is that emotions tend to amplify our psychic signals. If someone is screaming and crying on the outside their brains are screaming out psychic signals on the inside which is what gets their attention. Kind of like a beacon shining in the dark. I miss jo... Yeah; that makes sense. Especially since sometimes I also seem to (psychically) pick up people screaming in their heads 🙁. I miss Jo, too. And please don’t mind me saying that over and over for awhile. It helps to affirm in my own head that she truly has passed..... No, she’s not “hovering” here. I don’t “feel” her like I used to 💧. There IS Another “side” to THIS place, and that’s why I’m free to say that she has passed.... passed into the other PLACE. Yes,, there are “windows” there..... she’s busy, but occasionally she may come to that “window”, and look out at us, and smile, and wave...... 😉😊 But I wouldn’t try to draw her back....
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Post by jcurio on Oct 7, 2019 5:34:01 GMT -6
About her “leaving”..... THAT Was Awful.
Remember how many times she SAID that she was leaving? 🤗 She was fed up about something, would tell us, and make her exit...and then come back in a week or so.... I WAS SO OK, with that. I “felt” her still around.
This time, her telling me her “news”, of being ill, I just kept waiting, and waiting; and now that emptiness I felt is “glaringly obvious”.
She encouraged me so much. I hope that I gave her belly laughs! 😆
I purposely ward off the sadness. I can’t let it overwhelm me. This “separation” is temporary... I’m sure of it! She is so happy! I swear (if I could swear 😇) that she GAVE me THAT!
She didn’t want to pass on right now, she told me so in a message here on TEOR before she passed.... but SHE IS DOING GOOD.
No emotional or physical suffering. And she did plenty of that here on Earth. Can you imagine??
My prayers go to her daughter and son. In the last 3 years they have lost a father, a brother, and now their precious mom. ☹️ Can you imagine?
This life is unbelievably cruel.
How for them to move on?? 💧
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Post by jcurio on Oct 7, 2019 5:36:19 GMT -6
But they will.
If their mom comes to that “window” anytime soon, it will be for her kids.
❤️❤️❤️🙏🏻
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Post by jcurio on Oct 10, 2019 15:52:47 GMT -6
* * *
“ . . . FAZEKAS: She does not know. She has these little memory flashes, but she does not have a memory of anything really before Jo found her. I think she’s suspecting, and I think she’s afraid, like, “What if I’m bad?” And she wants to hide that.
But she believes that she is human?
FAZEKAS: Yep, she does.“
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THIS, is part of the recent write up of the new tv show “Emergence”.
Those of you that have been following my thread here off and on, THIS should be something that makes you go ....... Hmmmmmmmmm.
😁😉
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Post by jcurio on Oct 11, 2019 7:23:12 GMT -6
It’s weird..... I DO hear the name “Jo” several times in my life now..... 2 people of very different ages.... and a cat named “jo” 😁. I’m not kidding. All 3 “Jo’s” are in relation to my seeing clients (so only this past year).......
Do I get on TEOR sometimes just to talk with our Jo?
YES.
That is another part that is HARD. But I’m working on it.
Again, I have a LOT of wonderful memories involving JoKelly.~ sigh~
I wonder how Lorelei is doing? Both, in general, and knowing that she misses Jo too.....
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Post by jcurio on Oct 13, 2019 12:07:36 GMT -6
I just slept 12 hours. (And missed church).
How do I sleep 12 hours??
Working all week, being busy all day yesterday, and I play “catch up” on sleep. Somehow, it works for me. 😉
I feel pretty good right now... been awake for an hour. My body hurts everywhere. Joints more than muscles; but this is normal for me. Doesnt matter if I worked in the yard yesterday or exercised. I always feel like I worked out at the gym the day before. No matter what I have done.
When I first got one of those special mattresses I didn’t hurt getting out of bed for quite awhile...
Facing (again) that I’m never gonna be “normal”. I’m reluctant to tell people that I use the weekends to catch up on sleep. Most people think you can’t do that and science says so - so why try?
I heard my alarm this morning, but I would have been miserable at church. First thing I did when I did get up was take pain reliever.
And Oh, I had another one of my stupid headaches through sleeping.
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Post by jcurio on Oct 13, 2019 12:15:33 GMT -6
I dreamed a lot! Mostly pleasantly!
What I find odd, is that after a good dream, I had a mixed up version, weird one, directly after. ~sigh~ Can’t I enjoy a good 12 hour sleep? **********
I “worry” now, about this topic. The “paranotmormal” 🤗. Para-not-normal.
Oh really, haven’t I always “worried” about it in some way??
Right now, it has to do with the feeling of : paying attention to it, draws it to you.
Not enough people talk about asking for protection. Why? Jo and I talked about this all the time!
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Post by jcurio on Oct 13, 2019 12:25:40 GMT -6
I DO think we, all of us humans, ARE going to hear more and more about the para-not-normal subject. I think it will be hard to avoid in our coming years..... whereas, at one point, people thought it was diminishing.
Para-not-normal, to me, is being attacked by this phenomenon. Paranormal has always interacted with us in some fashion- and some of that WAS “corrected” by general attitudes- like positive or negative attitudes. You HAD to wonder where the “good” in it was 🤗.
Now, that doesn’t matter (but still worth a try).
I think that this is obvious (with all the evil going down in this world).
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Post by jcurio on Oct 13, 2019 12:32:56 GMT -6
I’m not ready to share some of the experiences I’ve been through, even lately, in my real life.
Just let me tell you, that there are people who say out loud, and to themselves, that they would like to return to the “old ways”. Makes me wonder if they even know what they are talking about!
As much as I THINK that I am praying, there are people out there praying to something else, and having ceremonies. Even here in my home town (of course).
The internet has helped make it appear “harmless”. Mainstream; popular. Freedom of religion, ya know?
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Post by jcurio on Oct 15, 2019 7:12:07 GMT -6
There was a time, and I may have talked about this before, where I was collecting newspaper articles of “weird accidents”. For example, a priest walking down the street and getting hit and crushed by a falling (or rolling) piano. 😊 the stuff of movies.
Anyway, the underlying theme was weird “accidents”. People hurt by material things that moved on “their own”, or fell at the right time; etc. But that was when the internet was just starting to kick off with All the news, and newspapers started seeming a bit “slow”......
For my home town, somewhere around 2010? (The newspaper seemed to be repeating info that I had just read on the ‘net). IDK.
My “project” did not last.
Lately, I’ve been collecting a different type of “story”.
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Post by jcurio on Oct 15, 2019 7:16:52 GMT -6
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Post by jcurio on Oct 15, 2019 7:19:36 GMT -6
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