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Post by Deleted on Apr 2, 2017 12:39:32 GMT -6
I'm laughing..I'm actually glad someone did see the humor in that JC..nothing to forgive. We have a lot in common by way of duty/responsibility...and self imposed feelings of being stuck...and working to make not just the best of it..but progress from it. Neither of us are 'alone' but we shoulder responsibility differently than some do. I've always got an eye forward to 'what could happen' so I'm over protective..like you are with your father. Motto..if it's possible to happen it probably will. I think we understand possibilities on a different level..somehow. I've always thought that was part of my claircognizance, something just 'known' or felt. You just know it's right. At any rate. While we handle those things differently we also handle them the same...so...it's a comfort.
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Post by jcurio on Apr 2, 2017 17:00:45 GMT -6
Motto..if it's possible to happen it probably will. Read more: theedgeofreality.proboards.com/thread/1418/who-simplistic-solutions-jc?page=65#ixzz4d8LnHtns__________ Pessimistic? Nah. Probably somewhat prepared for anything. Anything. đ
And I'm willing to bet you STILL are somewhat "spontaneous"? đ LOL. Have I told you today that you are a great comfort to me? Well you are. And I think everyone else knows we are "tight". Am I "scared" that such a wonderful friendship could be ruined by exchanging phone numbers? I am aware that other members here actually talk.... in fact, I wonder about things like Skywalker filling us in on " honeybunny" ! She had a birthday in the last couple of months! (I totally understand why her mommy isn't on here very much these days). Anyway, yeah, I gave up the phone when my kids were young..... this is SO much more "private". Private? What a hoot!! đ¤Ŗ đ So yeah. Another fear. And somehow this grown woman who everyone predicted would always be a "rebel without a cause" is a "stick in the mud". Lol.
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Post by jcurio on Apr 2, 2017 17:23:36 GMT -6
Or a "fuddy-duddy" (should have seen spell - correct on that one). My mom likes lifetime and hallmark movies - shes' on her second one now. Dinner time and my dads asleep.... my sis used to watch movies with her. How do I get my mom up just to stretch her legs? đ˛ I still get up quite a bit - but yeah, being on the "phone" like this works for me.
So, I'm also rude. âšī¸
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Post by jcurio on Apr 2, 2017 22:11:17 GMT -6
And here I am, hours later, still wondering how I can comfort you on that dream?
You have shared 2 where you were "being rescued". ? (And here's me; trying to be funny - SOME people would LOVE to have a dream with Tom C. Rescuing them!). But since he's not a favorite, it does make it quite a bit more "odd". Hmmmmmm.
Do you even slightly associate him with the "alien" thing? Like you said, maybe because of his Scientology beliefs?
And your last "rescue dream" , well, I think you decided it WAS "alien" related. About the blond, and the iv pole?
I feel like I am treading on thin ground here... it's one thing to think my dreams could be "alien". Quite another to suggest it to someone else. Even someone as strong as you.
Maybe I shouldn't even bring it up again? When you don't regularly have bad dreams, I imagine that they are especially disturbing! So sorry you are having nightmares!
I had one again last night. And again, it was about being in "a small space". I should remember how disturbing these type of dreams are
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Post by jcurio on Apr 2, 2017 22:13:14 GMT -6
Praying that you have a good night tonight. đ
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Post by Deleted on Apr 2, 2017 23:58:57 GMT -6
Well..at least someone WAS rescuing me so I shouldn't complain. Honestly I don't mind the light hearted response a bit..relaxes the mood of it. Last two days I have NOT been a pleasant person at all. I feel very discombobulated..edgy..and klutzy. I feel like I'm chasing myself just to get anything done and things that should be easy aren't. I cook a lot for the people my daughter works for. A day a week I make the 6 mechanics some kind of lunch and I always make them chocolate chip cookies plus some special flat crispy burned chocolate cookies for her significant other who likes em that way. I can't do a thing right. Burned a simple loaf of bread..made puddles out of his cookies..simple stuff is just acting all wrong. Stupid stuff. On the plus side..he took us flying today out over the ocean and that was lovely. He's an acrobatic pilot but has a couple of regular type planes too..so that was a wonderful treat. Not just me..husband has been snappy too and I totally wrecked his dinner in the bargain so ..sour pickles.
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Post by jcurio on Apr 3, 2017 6:53:05 GMT -6
So glad the entire weekend wasn't a "disaster"! đ What a nice little trip over the ocean! WOW!
And, sounds like you didn't have any falls (being "klutzy"). Yay!
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Post by skywalker on Apr 3, 2017 21:13:10 GMT -6
In response to what Jc wrote a few posts ago, I am reading this stuff. Just been busy and don't have my puter right now so can't post much. And believe it or not (which I don't) my puter is actually not broke...but the truck that I left it in is. Some fool smashed into my truck while I was parked and they messed the front end all up. It's been in the shop for the past week and still isn't fixed. My company got me another truck to use temporarily but I had to leave all of my stuff in the other truck. Had to go to Walmart and buy a sleeping bag and some pillows so I would have something to sleep in. Got some socks and underwear too. That's pretty much all I have till I can get the other truck back. I hope nobody steals all my stuff.
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Post by skywalker on Apr 3, 2017 21:41:33 GMT -6
And just for the heck of it here's a little girl hugging a water heater.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 3, 2017 23:08:30 GMT -6
Even the kids are confused now days. Sorry to hear about your truck Sky.. BTW..have you heard anything from Lois?? It's been awhile I think..I's worried.
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Post by skywalker on Apr 4, 2017 7:49:27 GMT -6
Shami is still alive and kicking. She mentioned something about seeing a doctor a few days ago. Probably because of the traumatic stress of trump winning the election.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 4, 2017 9:48:05 GMT -6
You're so cute. Tks for the Shammi update
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Post by jcurio on Apr 5, 2017 9:35:57 GMT -6
Something random. Something disturbing.
Now, when I press "play" on any video from here on TEOR, I can expect that the next time I go straight to utube, that particular video will show up on the "page" that I am to use the search engine on. And of course, right there on the screen are other SIMILAR videos (same subject) because our "new type of advertising" collects my interests and announces : "this is something you might like".
This was first introduced to my mind by SHOPPING places online like Amazon. I imagine that you concur, and you also knew that every where you went on the internet had "cookies" tracking you. đ
I'm not even surprised anymore that this "record" is kept, even if I clear out my phone browser every day. When you turn off your phone, reboot it, password change, whatever.
So you would THINK that when I have looked for something different, that this "new interest" would come up on that initial utube page. Sometimes it does.
When it doesn't, my first thought is "does that site NOT have cookies?" I'm wondering if this is a reasonable thought....,
Or, is the choosing of what you will view NEXT, sometimes more than just random, from what you have previously chosen? đ˛
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Post by Deleted on Apr 5, 2017 9:46:25 GMT -6
I dunno..I do know Yahoo is tracking. It offers me 'preferences' similar to what I last looked for. I have a simi-smart phone (actually mine is pretty stupid) and I have a tablet which is more of a headache cause it's such a cheap one..so my poison is a large all in one Asus desk top and I purge it a couple of times a month..cleaning cookies etc. I order a lot from Amazon because I have free shipping and that is an enormous help when you order 42 pounds of cat sand ..post office detests me. They also offer things similar to what was last ordered so...I'm guessing that's sort of along the same lines a little.
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Post by jcurio on Apr 6, 2017 6:53:23 GMT -6
Oh yeah, you understood that confusing post! đ
The post office is used to you, Jo. And your neighbors are, too, if you get something like kitty sand home-delivered! Lol.
This week we have had 2 things that we have had to sign for. Both times, the person absolutely rapped on the door HARD, and repeatedly. Did not casually ring the door bell in any way, shape, or form. One was after dark? It was so insistent right off the first knock, that I was thinking, um, policeman knocking right before breaking down the door!? The lady across the street who regularly has deliveries, the driver honks when he parks, and honks when he takes off. ?
Not complaining; just adjusting. đ ******* I have been on utube watching some "Christian" videos. Not someone big name; not the likes of Marzulli. Suddenly I can't remember the radio shows' name, the guy on the show, or a pastors name that he was interviewing. I thought by now, I would have been reminded by utube? . . . Great. Maybe one of my "dream" activities IS normal. Sitting and watching videos on utube. ?
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Post by jcurio on Apr 6, 2017 8:22:17 GMT -6
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Post by Deleted on Apr 6, 2017 9:28:12 GMT -6
I always feel sad when I see someone missing has been found dead..no more hope..no last shot that she ran away..I feel sad every time I look at the news any more. I'm reading a book (kindle) called the 5th Gospel. It's sort of a super natural mystery to do with the shroud of Jesus and some missing gospel texts. There is a LOT of Catholic church information..I never knew the Vatican was a city unto itself..with supermarkets and theaters etc. Having a friend who is Catholic (the one who met the little thugs with me) I've been to Catholic services a number of times..and actually the pomp and circumstance of the Latin Mass is in some very ancient way familiar. A lot of the stuff I'm reading seems to be like a memory from the past..very weird but interesting. I don't hold wealthy religions in much esteem especially with all of the old lore about rich men not being a favorite of God's. Matthew: Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God."
Still the money is in the church not the men themselves I suppose.
Laughing at myself..my brain is off on some tangent this morning...looks to be a nice cool day.
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Post by jcurio on Apr 7, 2017 7:52:53 GMT -6
Hello from the DENVER airport! I don't have time to look around here (bummer). I wanted to be sure and let Swampy know that I'm not getting any special treatment!!
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Post by Deleted on Apr 7, 2017 8:56:59 GMT -6
Whatcha doin in Denver?? Have a feeling I missed something...which in itself isn't unusual LOL
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Post by jcurio on Apr 7, 2017 13:59:52 GMT -6
You haven't missed a thing, sweetie đ.
Now I'm in San Fran waiting for my sis to get off work! (I have someone staying with my folks for a few days- I HAveto take a weekend away now and then; last one was 2 yrs ago!).
It's raining here just like it is at home. Oh well! We both need rain!
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Post by jcurio on Apr 7, 2017 18:57:14 GMT -6
Interesting day. Should have gone with the "gut instinct" as usual đ and rented a car.
Sounded kind of silly when I have a car that needs fixed at home..... My sister has still not "arrived". I've talked to her a couple of times; she left work at 3:30 San Fran time..... My bizarre, waiting, and waiting, and waiting .... Life.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 8, 2017 17:12:53 GMT -6
Now and then we can all use a pick me up..and this always fits the bill for me: For us all.
Desiderata
Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and the igannant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy. Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.
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Post by jcurio on Apr 10, 2017 12:33:46 GMT -6
Wellllll, can't say the ride home will be uneventful..... I have to go thru Chicago tomorrow morning. ?? Just saw the video of the doctor dragged off of the plane. Then just read that a judge got shot at his home in Chicago this morning.
I have family in Chicago. I haven't been there since early 90s.
Spent the day in San Fran yesterday in Chrissy Park. There were guys in wet suits surfing near the bridge. The whole area is gorgeous. I didn't feel threatened by ANYTHING. I will talk more about that later!
My sis apartment is one bedroom, and it is so quiet here! Probably because of how these apartments are made to withstand small earthquakes. Don't hear anyone "bumping" around at night!
It's going to be hard to leave first thing tomorrow morning. Next time maybe a longer stay? But I am missing everyone at home. đ
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Post by Deleted on Apr 10, 2017 17:35:48 GMT -6
I think California has a 'different' vibe..it's not 'heavy'. I have traveled some when we were training horses..Texas, Okla, New Mexico, Arizona, Montana, Wyoming, Idaho, Oregon, Washington,Connecticut..all lovely places but the speed or pace is different..and to a large extent the head set of people. I don't know why this is but that's what I've felt...I've been here all of my life and trust me if the 'unknown/unusual is hunting..it will find you anywhere...but here..they go surfing first.
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Post by jcurio on Apr 11, 2017 21:42:06 GMT -6
I'm home. The whole trip was awesome!
Even this part that I am dealing with now. đ I'm "sick". Bear with me! I'm highly allergic to cats (?) and my sis has one of the cutest ones I have ever seen! I didn't touch her as much as I like (break out in red welts way too quickly), but I loaded my system up before hand, knowing that an apartment would have her dander. I let her lay against my back while I was sleeping a couple of times. I am such a fool! (I had cats when I was married and miss them so much!).
Head is really stopped up now - it started Monday night.... taking more allergy meds..... yuck! đ
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Post by Deleted on Apr 11, 2017 22:37:31 GMT -6
A visit to me would be your downfall LOL. I have 7 of them. People keep dumping them and they keep finding me. I am so grateful to NOT be allergic. So happy you had a great trip..I'm sure you needed one.
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Post by jcurio on Apr 14, 2017 12:23:19 GMT -6
True, true. But why just blame the kitties?
Who has the time to clean these planes with people constantly getting on an off, ?? And I'd hate to think that the sudden ups and downs of taking off and landing upset some "delicquet" equilibrium! Lol.
Surprisingly, that part didn't bother me at all! Didn't have a bit of discomfort with my ears, or nausea, or anything! đ
So why am I blowing my nose constantly and hacking up stuff NOW? Probably because I caught a cold.
''Tis miserable. Dreaming so "heavy" when I fall asleep that I am forcing myself to wake up. And wake up partially hallucinating. Getting up only to use the restroom and drink another glass of water. Taking only 5 mg of that phenylephrin stuff (which is NOT supposed to make you tired). Nothing tastes good. Grumble grumble. Only takes a head cold and I'm feeling very sorry for myself. Wondering if I'll remember any of these super weird dreams I am having ..... some of them a weird continuation of dreams I had in San Fran..... aaaaack! Am I talking straight? Can't think straight..... typing ok I guess. đ
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Post by Deleted on Apr 14, 2017 14:28:44 GMT -6
umm say whattttt?? Just kidding..you're making sense..mostly
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Post by jcurio on Apr 14, 2017 20:13:43 GMT -6
Only "creepy" factor of whole trip was Monday. We wanted to see some redwoods or sequoias, without driving for 4 hours.
Oakland, California has a redwood forest. Just now I was looking at a map of the area to see if it was anything like we experienced. Nevermind that I also just read that Oakland has the worst crime rate.....
The forest itself was gorgeous. Wide, well-kept paths that could hold a bicycle or two. Large, rambling houses encroaching on the lower paths, and several cars parked at an opening to trails. But as we went higher, we saw less people, less signs, and the trail wound on and on; sometimes crossing main roads that had NO traffic. By the time we were behind a large, significant, "space-molded" building that appeared "once used, now vacant" I was ready to turn around. So was my sis. Behind this building was also some weed covered, delapidated stairs leading up to the building, that obviously weren't used for anything.
After going back down a ways, and going up one of the roadways, I read on the side of a parked truck "chabot space and scientific center". So that's what it was. And it's closed on Mondays and Tuesdays (according to the internet). The center has been moved a couple of times, but has been in the area since the 1800's? Kind of explains the "way it looked". That's hard to describe, and I wasn't inclined to take pictures......
Creepiness, was the absolute quiet of the forest. We had some strange sounding bird about fifteen feet ahead of us in the trees, seeming to announce our progress up the hill side. But nothing else. This is a large reserve area, with the Chabot lake also, but there were not ANY SOUNDS of Spring day, water nearby, and underbrush scurrying. I tried to hide my uncomfortableness, but did finally mention it as we neared the car. Then I asked her to drive on up the hill, to see the gates or opening to the center's drive from the front side, and that magnified our "creepiness". Heaps and piles of rubbish on the side of the road. A suitcase (or 2). We're telling each other that the park service has made these piles for easy removal.
Passing through a lovely sheltered neighborhood (woodminster- on the map) I was startled by the US MAILBOX with graffiti on it; just before we entered the highway.
That's how it felt. An empty, lawlessness into its own, and some huge hands would snatch us up into that void of a forest if we didn't get out of there. Like if we had seen anyone out tending their lawn (we didn't see anyone! No corner gas stations either!) they would have been faceless or frozen smiles.
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Post by jcurio on Apr 14, 2017 20:21:55 GMT -6
Ten to twenty minutes later, we were settling into the busy drive of San Francisco, and trying to find a place to park at the fishermans' wharf. It was packed with people and we settled for an " in and out burger" instead of the fresh fish we were craving. We walked around the wharf until dark. People were standing in line to ride the " famous streetcars " and it was fun to watch the people holding on to the sides and hollering out to their friends. We casually shopped and forgot entirely about "Oakwood".
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