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Post by Deleted on Jun 9, 2015 13:32:20 GMT -6
I haven't had any unusually odd experiences since my dad died in 2012. I guess this is a good thing. I have seen a couple UFOs, but no sleep paralysis and no late night electronics malfunctions or odd lights off in the woods lately.
The boyfriend told me a few days ago that he wishes they would beam him up and take him on a tour of the galaxy. I used to fantasize about that when I was a kid- but I didn't want the skinny gray monsters with the scary black eyes to do it- I wanted Princess Leia to do it.
Ah well. I guess without fantasy life would suck for most of us.
The baby is crying. I guess she isn't a baby anymore though she's a toddler now. I'd better go check on her. She won't take a nap because her security blanket is in the washing machine. Of all the blankets people have given us. Of all the blankets I have purchased myself. It can only be "The Blankie". It's the one and only. No naps without it. No comfort without it. It goes wherever she goes. But this morning, she decided to smear pureed squash all over it.
I want the boyfriend to see a UFO. So he can understand that they actually exist. I do NOT want him to be abducted, and I do NOT want MYSELF to be a witness to the sighting.
How can I wish that? I want him to be happy, but I don't want to be a part of it personally. Hmm... so much fear about something that- as far as I know- has never harmed me in any way aside from psychologically.
We made the mistake of watching the X-Files before bed a couple nights ago. Of course, it was an Alien episode. The boyfriend was mad at me because I kept turning the lights on and wouldn't go to sleep with the door open. Hm.
The fear is still there. The visitations, visions and UFO sightings have gone. Maybe I'm too old now to hold their interest. Maybe they have heard me speaking to them in the middle of the night, looking up towards the ceiling and saying, "Don't come back. I'd rather die than see you again!"
This is a good thing. Isn't it?
They'd better leave the baby alone. Not that there would be anything I could do about it if they decided to torment her as they did to me as a child...
Hm.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 9, 2015 14:04:35 GMT -6
No sleep paralysis?? Wow! That's SO awesome! _______________________________________________________ Wanting someone to understand your fear? Understandable. Boyfriend getting mad because sometimes you do "odd" things, like getting a little nervous, for whatever reason, that brings the little scientists to mind? IDK. the days where I have all kinds of stuff going through my head, I'm keeping it to myself, but my "behavior" may give me away, or I just appear as "offf" to others? Seeing my own sister "jumpy" after a abusive relationship, even though I know what that's like, became an irritation, sad to say. Just the questions all the time, "what was that noise/was that the garage door?" (Me) I don't know sis, do you want me to go look? (my mind saying "your turn to go look"). Not AT ALL saying that YOU are this way, Lor. !! Just saying, and knowing with this as an example, that some people can not, and will not, and should not, handle the mental stuff that WE DO. I don't care what other people say about getting medication and/or counselling; yes it has its place. We can only "monitor" ourselves, and hopefully our children for their well-being, and yeah, sometimes we feel like we can see into someone else's head, and help them, but . . . Citizen K has not been back since her husband had an "experience" in their new home. He knew of weird things around their life, believed her truth, all that. Yes, I still hope for coincidences. Yep, Citizen K is just really busy decorating her new home these days, taking care of those growing kids, she's writing her book . . . Life is NOT boring without fantasy. YOU are so talented! (And you prolly had some stuff as a kid that you thought you couldn't be without,, you've just forgotten (or maybe not. . ) The "stages" of normal kiddom, look for the joy. The crying, gets to ya don't it? There's got to be some "fantasy" that minimalizes that part!
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Post by skywalker on Jun 9, 2015 17:11:37 GMT -6
I haven't had any unusually odd experiences since my dad died in 2012. I guess this is a good thing. I have seen a couple UFOs, but no sleep paralysis and no late night electronics malfunctions or odd lights off in the woods lately. This is good, Lorelei. You have matured a lot over the past few years...gotten much stronger because of all the crap you have had to deal with. But you are dealing with it. That strength helps you to deal with all of the weirdness also. Maybe it even keeps it away from you. I certainly can't hurt any. You should explain to the boyfriend dude a few things. For instance, when the little grey space pirates abduct people they don't take them on a tour of the galaxy. If they did that I would be the first in line. What they do first of all is treat their victim like a lab rat. Then they erase most of the memories so the human lab rat can only remember small portions of what happened. Then they cause the lab rat to have horrible nightmares because subconsciously the memories are still there. Then when the abductee/human lab rat tries to explain what is going on to other people they end up looking, feeling and being treated like a nutball. Then they cause the abductee to spend the next 27 or more years trying to figure out if what really happened really happened. Not the most fun in the world. I want Princess Leia to do it too. The little kid is gonna be fine, Lorelei. Only a fool would mess with a honeybunny.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 10, 2015 9:46:29 GMT -6
Yeah..I was 6 before they visited me ...you have a while before you need to invent a force field surrounding her. Thing is..only the ones they intend to see them do. I have this theory (don't I always have?) That we are drawn to those who are of our own nature. K.. I am witch..a lot of you are..but that doesn't mean card carrying pointy hat wearing wart and cackle. It's how I define 'nature children' and I stole it from Andre Norton the writer. Those who have that extrasensory thing going on..who love the animals and plants and wee things of our world..who are insatiably curious and a tad more daring than others..who poke their noses into every crevice and crack..search the skies endlessly...and see 'things'. Those people are what I term 'witch' and that has nothing to do with the spiritual belief or religion. I'm a 'Christian witch'. I believe in God and his round-up of angels and such...but I know witches who are Pagan, Wiccan, Jewish, Atheist and every color of the rainbow. Witch to me is the base design..what draws the 'unusual'. By that definition that would be everyone here. Anyway I believe that like draws like. We are attracted to those like ourselves..who have that far reaching design.. My daughter and son's are what I are... My daughter was drawn to this quirky brilliant aerospace engineer who's very much the scientist..God doesn't fit into his plan..Ufo's are not coming here because they'd all be smarter than that...but...he walks into my house and every animal pours over him. He kept a horse alive for years and years that other people would have destroyed..and he's allergic to cats. Most recently he was in his hangar when a cat walked in and found him..now she sleeps on top of him at home...frets when he's gone..and he has nagging 'feelings' from tie to time that he doesn't understand. Yep..witch you are. I'd have never picked my husband on personality..we're like oil and water..and he's Taurus like both of my parents..naturally I'm Leo the sun rises and sets on me He's stubborn I'm emotional..BUT..the animals fall all over him..he understands and respects my 'quirks'..He definitely cannot scratch my emotional itch..doesn't share my 'yearning' but even 'witches' have temperaments much like their Astrological sign would indicate. Their own personalities. I was still drawn there..and believe me I passed over many loving and caring types who my horse hated LOL. His sun is setting quicker than mine and I'll be relieved because his discomfort and pain are much..he's never done pain or discomfort well (women are better at that than men..whole child-birth thing would kill em)...but we've been together 42 years. Short version..boyfriend is in your orbit Lorelei..he'll probably see one Such is my working theory
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Post by Deleted on Jun 10, 2015 13:37:20 GMT -6
Jo, I'm praying for your husband. I hope his suffering is reduced as much as possible in his final moments. ~hugs~ My grandfather, who was 92 (grew up in the South where superstition was high) when he passed had a couple brief phone conversations with the boyfriend last year. One time the boyfriend mentioned to him that I had had a "premonition" about something. The boyfriend told me that my grandfather's response was odd. He said, "I always suspected she might be a witch." I honestly think he was too at times... Jc, I didn't see your post last night which was odd, only Sky's post showed up for some reason and yet today I saw your post on here appearing before his post. I do do those things. What was that sound? Babe... did you hear that? NO! Don't go outside! (going outside is a bad idea after 10 pm for some reason. The door needs to be locked and not opened until 5 am the following morning). I'm not this way every night- but I have been like this for the past week or so. Not sure why but I'm on "high Alert". Probably because we've been watching the X-Files on netflix again. Last night we watched another episode before bed. It was an alien one but no real scary bright lights. I told the boyfriend, "I hope they don't show the aliens in this one..." His response was, "The director promised he would not show a single alien in the first season." Good. It's so odd that he knows so much about the X-Files and yet he has never seen anything of a paranormal nature in his life. He knows more about it than I do. Odd, isn't it? He used to listen to Coast to Coast every night with his ex wife. He's very obsessive about it and always has been. Hmm...
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Post by Deleted on Jun 14, 2015 12:04:13 GMT -6
Jc, I didn't see your post last night which was odd, only Sky's post showed up for some reason and yet today I saw your post on here appearing before his post. Well, probably not so odd, when it comes to me . . I'm betting that aunty has seen me post, with more than a few glitches. I guess she got used to it . There's nothing I can do about it, at this point. On days when I most seem to affect electronics, I have tried to see if I'm more emotional, or what. It still fits under the "or what" catagory. ___________________________________________________________________________________ I have those high anxiety days that you described for yourself, even though I don't watch scary or paranormal shows (I would like to watch the x files again). It comes down to knowing there is nothing physical you can do, if something paranormal is bothering you. I mean, I have locked a door, come back later (within an hour) and it is unlocked. And I'm definitely home alone. I have to tell myself (on these type of instances) that I unlocked it myself, maybe even with anxiety related PK. And remember, I have (2) dogs that bark and will defend me if necessary. I've had enough of this "stuff" happen over my lifetime to know something is not quite normal here. Of course it makes it easier to believe other peoples' events. I can't think of a time I have seen something material move on its own (other than vibration movement from something else). I mean, if I saw a doorknob or such turning on its own, that would be really scary! (oh wait! That time when I was a kid; the weird O board planchette! ) I'm more inclined to some sort of theory that there are "time glitches". Portals that possibly move, and "take" small things like "someones' cake" out of their refrigerator, only to put it back a day later . Sounds So Silly! Soooooooo, really, is someone/something able to manuever our material world with these little "glitches"? And why would "they" take a cake for one day?? back to what I was saying, about "high anxiety" days. We have 'em probably more than most folk, for the simple fact that we have had things happen to us, that we only have niggling memories of. But the memory IS there, and our body is reacting, probably sometimes throwing our emotions into gear. Ok, so what is the boyfriends reaction to all this paranormal? Is it just entertainment?
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Post by Deleted on Jun 15, 2015 4:19:44 GMT -6
I wouldn't say it's just entertainment. More fantasy than anything else it seems to be. He seems to believe in UFOs and the existence of aliens, and yet most of the stories he hears he dubs untrue or hoaxes.
Meh. I need to go to sleep. amy was up crying (ah the toddler years) for hours. Her grandma gave her a lot of fatty foods today while we were taking a long road trip out to my grandfather's house to check things out and make sure everything was still OK. Grandma apparently doesn't remember that amy no longer has a gallbladder (they removed it with the right lobe of her liver) so she shouldn't be eating a lot of fatty foods... MAJOR tummy ache today because of it... I think that chocolate milk shake did her in (grandma gave her 1/3 of the milkshake uggghh... of course amy was saying, "YUM YUM! YUM! YUM!" while she was drinking it..)
~sigh~
The last four hours I've been on "high alert" again to the point where when I was in the basement putting the towels in the dryer I was shouting to the boyfriend upstairs the whole time I was downstairs. Made it look like I was worried about amy. "What's she doing? Is she OK? Where is she?"
Just feeling like something is hiding in the shadows somewhere and getting ready to pounce. Can't explain it. Just feeling it.
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Post by paulette on Jun 15, 2015 10:46:32 GMT -6
"Short version..boyfriend is in your orbit Lorelei..he'll probably see one Such is my working theory." Read more: theedgeofreality.proboards.com/thread/5756/new-report-good-thing#ixzz3d9KxiwIXThanks for sharing about your Christian witchiness Jokelly. Witch is just a word for people who can perceive and act outside the box. Witches argue about who is "real witch." Just like religions do. (The real wise ones (the word wicce is the root word of wisdom) just smile and sense and do what they do - in small groups or alone. I used to think that Terry (who also thinks he wants to be picked up and flown around by them) would see one - I hoped we would both see one from a distance (and it would stay at a distance.) We still do a lot of driving around in remote off-road areas. There has been the spidey feel a few times and I just say - I want to drive out of this area NOW. I guess I don't want the experience with him enough to put up with my strong reactions/fears. Now I think (with his weakened heart) it would be better for him NOT to have such as experience. Better to believe that this is all there is. It's certainly simplier that way.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 15, 2015 13:39:20 GMT -6
It's nice to feel verified..to have others KNOW you're not a nut case for believing. I've decided I need to live in Iceland. There was an article here on yahoo about Elves. Half of the population of Iceland believe in them..there's an entire park donated to the Elves and many people see them..and a few others like gnomes and another little race ( Hudulfolk ) who look more like the sort of elf Legolas is yummy. The people who live there call it 'magical'..and beautiful and I could use a dose of that in my life. There is even an Elf school to learn about them there. Such is my nature that I would so much rather live there with the Elves than on Mars. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hulduf%C3%B3lk
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Post by auntym on Jun 15, 2015 13:50:32 GMT -6
It's nice to feel verified..to have others KNOW you're not a nut case for believing. I've decided I need to live in Iceland. There was an article here on yahoo about Elves. Half of the population of Iceland believe in them..there's an entire park donated to the Elves and many people see them..and a few others like gnomes and another little race ( Hudulfolk ) who look more like the sort of elf Legolas is yummy. The people who live there call it 'magical'..and beautiful and I could use a dose of that in my life. There is even an Elf school to learn about them there. Such is my nature that I would so much rather live there with the Elves than on Mars. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hulduf%C3%B3lk this is for you jo... twitter.com/hashtag/SmilePowerDay?src=hash
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Post by Deleted on Jun 16, 2015 0:10:56 GMT -6
What a lovely gift Thank you Auntie!
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Post by Deleted on Jun 17, 2015 23:56:30 GMT -6
"Temporal lobe stimulation can evoke the feeling of a presence, disorientation, and perceptual irregularities. It can activate images stored in the subject's memory, including nightmares and monsters that are normally suppressed. Contemporary neuroscience suggests the existence of fundamental algorithms by which all sensory transduction is translated into an intrinsic, brain-specific code. Direct stimulation of these codes within the human temporal or limbic cortices by applied electromagnetic patterns may require energy levels which are within the range of both geomagnetic activity and contemporary communication networks. A process which is coupled to the narrow band of brain temperature could allow all normal human brains to be affected by a sub-harmonic whose frequency range at about 10 Hz would only vary by 0.1 Hz."
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"they" (TPTB ?) used to say, that a weapon like this would have to be directly pointed at someone to work.
What I think? They point it in a general area, and observe which people it bothers.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 24, 2015 12:54:52 GMT -6
I know you're very busy, and I need to study this stuff for myself, so I hope you don't mind me sharing with You. I'm so glad things are going well! and you seem to know what causes your particular "agitation" (paranormal shows), which is more than I can say. I really really used to want to be a child psychologist, and thought that I could help some kids. That was before I understood that I was most likely a "victim" of being "taken". Now I realize how many layers, and layers, I would have to gently pry apart; starting with self. I want to ask Paulette particular questions about a process called "rebirthing", but that will have to wait. And none of this may be new(s) to you. ritualabuse.us/ritualabuse/articles/common-programs-observed-in-survivors-of-satanic-ritualistic-abuse/" 4). Cover Programs — (Ray & Reagor, 1991) Similar to “screen memories;” these are programmed memories laid in by the cult to distract from, or distort, the true ritual abuse memory. A secondary purpose of these programs is to discredit the survivor’s memories with “unbelievable” content. For example, a ritual involving pain and “medical” paraphernalia might be “covered” with a memory of UFO abduction and experimentation." people are in such denial about this. I don't blame them. it's a long, lonely, twisted road. The fact that it has happened in nice, rural communities, makes it the more shocking. and for anyone that thinks this is "inappropriate" for a young lady with a small child, that crosses my mind, too. But I know that nothing is going to happen to Lore's (your kids). If anything, they will resent you somewhat (like mine do) that you are such a concerned, involved, parent. Overprotective. I'm not at all saying that this ritual abuse has happened to you and me. For all I know (for myself) its just more of those lies. It did happen to a friend of mine, who became a psychologist, before she found out what those "strange trips in the middle of the night with grandparents" were a lot more than she thought. Right after this last time Randy left TEOR, two things were brought to my attention. In one of her posts, paulette just kind of mentioned the false memory syndrome. I knew from past research that this "became popular" after the McMartin Preschool abuse case. Guess what? that "McMartin business", happened in marin county. And I wasn't aware that later on, pushed by parents, archeology studies DID find tunnels under the preschool. Very creepy stuff. Things are tied in with the three-letter alphabet groups of government, etc. Another important case, Polly Klaaas, is brought up in some of the information. With that case, I recall the perpetrator being let go initiallly after being questioned by a couple of police. He even opened a beer can in front of them!? I guess what I'm trying to say, is we (you and I) are so lucky we can trust the family members who are near to us. There's never enough eyes on a child. Don't let anyone make you think you are overreactive, or paranoid. Continue listening to your inner voice. You are exactly who you are for a reason.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 27, 2015 3:25:42 GMT -6
Oh, but I do believe myself to be paranoid JC. I am. I'm paranoid right now sitting here typing this because I heard a car up on the road. I'm the only one awake in the house at 1 o'clock in the morning.
It's not others telling me this. It's me. I guess I could go get put on a prescription that dulls my mind and gives me weird dreams and other horrible side effects (which I have been on before multiple times since I was a teenager... the endless barrage of anti depressant after anti depressant... this one works but has horrible side effects. This one doesn't work and I haven't slept in 3 days... this one helps me sleep but DANG those dreams are WEIRD...) to calm my frazzled nerves... but do I really need one of those drugs?
I picked up a prescription for a tricyclic anti depressant the day before my daughter's illness was diagnosed for post partum depression. I took one dose of it... and felt so much better but a little loopy and groggy all day... groggy but happy...
...then they told me her condition and we had to take a long road trip through the wilderness. I decided to stop taking it because... I needed to be ALERT and to PAY ATTENTION to her doctors and treatment team...
...if I had continued to take those pills... would I have been alert enough to rush her to the ER at 2 am in November when she spiked a fever of 104? No. I would have been passed out... I would never have KNOWN about the fever... or the MRSA infection... or the fact that her white blood cell count was zero... God only knows what would have happened if I had taken that drug...
~sigh~ The bottle is still in my purse. They DO help me sleep... but my mother is on the same drug and sometimes suffers from hallucinations at night because of it. She's on a much higher dose though...
Benadryl and melatonin seem to work just as well I think... when combined with meditation... sometimes... maybe a double dose of benadryl does the trick... sometimes not...
Meh.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 28, 2015 16:01:01 GMT -6
Oh, but I do believe myself to be paranoid JC. I am. I'm paranoid right now sitting here typing this because I heard a car up on the road. Meh. And why was that car up the road? Lost? Perhaps. Sure, a great deal of the time, nothing comes of us being ultra-observant. *I believe myself to be paranoid, also. What's the use of it? In "the big scheme of things", ie: the world, IDK. But for personal use, it has turned out to (sometimes) be handy. Did anything come of the day you were downstairs, and worried about amy, and hollering for someone to check on her? Were you just ignored, or did you prevent something from happening to her? Maybe someday you will know. But the point is, did your 'seeming paranoia" hurt anyone, anything, in that moment. I think not. Speaking of the situation where amy was sick. I've always wondered about "premonitions" you may have had before, and during that time, that involve you and amy (not the one about your grandpa). ? If you ever feel like talking about it. That is. Even if you had "good premonitions" (like a lot of your friends here), it is still very normal and OK to doubt everythinggoing on in a situation like that. Bless You!
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Post by Deleted on Jun 28, 2015 18:58:52 GMT -6
My doctor has prescribed Vicodin for sciatica pain I get..and that's what I was given in the hospital when I had the heart surgery. I'd call it my drug-of-choice and the strongest thing I've ever taken BUT it causes me to have negative dreams. I'm a 'lucid dreamer'..which means I know I'm dreaming and I can alter the path of a dream...when I dream which isn't often at all. I never EVER have nightmares. But when I take Vicodin I can't lucid dream..and while they're not nightmares they are negative and off the wall...and I don't like it. Where I am concerned..I'm a control freak and medications take that away...so verboten for me. Now if I'm having a LOT of back pain I break a Vicodin in half and take it with an ibuprofen and that seems to be enough to manage pain but not give me a case of the bizarre's. Alcohol is another wall for me because of the whole control thing. My parents were both alcoholics and watching them bumbling around like a pair of fools..terrified me enough to figure those were MY genetics out there acting like idiots...and my mother was the variety who couldn't 'remember' the horrid things she said or did. I think most of this control stuff happened after my little encounter where I couldn't control anything. I wouldn't even take pain meds when my babies were born because of those fears. It IS my paranoia. I can't say anything else is a big deal for me, but being under any influence...absolutely terrifies me
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Post by Deleted on Jun 28, 2015 20:40:11 GMT -6
I wouldn't even take pain meds when my babies were born because of those fears. It IS my paranoia. I can't say anything else is a big deal for me, but being under any influence...absolutely terrifies me Yes, loss of control can be a terrifying thing. Being paralyzed by Grays then subsequently tortured is enough to traumatize anyone about that sort of thing... I don't like to lose control either, but I do enjoy an occasional vicodin for migraines. It doesn't really make it go away but it relaxes me and takes the edge off. I also like to take half of it with an ibuprofin Jo. It seems to make it work better... but sometimes i'll take a whole one. Depends on how I'm feeling... JC, to be perfectly honest I don't even really remember the premonition I had about something bad happening, I vaguely do but I'd have to go back and re-read through the posts. I think it had to do with my grandfather's death. I think I'm suffering from PTSD again and I've effectively blocked out a lot of stuff from my memory... I also have panic attacks whenever I end up in a doctor's office... ugh. Like I didn't have enough poop to deal with. I read online from various websites that a lot of parents of children with cancer get PTSD from the treatment. Mothers are more likely to have it than fathers. Looks like I'm a normal statistic again. Meh. And the nightmare... the recurring nightmare about being on an airplane and the plane is going down in the ocean and the stewardess tells me they don't have any infant life vests... classic PTSD... nightmares, panic attacks, memory blocks. Wonderful. On a lighter note, amy is doing great. Walking around, getting into trouble and growing a full thick head of hair that looks just like mine. She'll probably need surgery next month to repair an incisional hernia that has appeared on her abdomen. Considering all of the abdominal surgeries she's had I suppose it's an expected side effect. Meh.
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Post by skywalker on Jun 28, 2015 20:47:45 GMT -6
Lorelei, I keep telling you not to worry about that dream about the plane crashing in the ocean. honeybunnys are expert swimmers and can communicate with the animals. If y'all ever crashed in the ocean she would probably call up a whole school of porpoises to rescue everybody, and a few whales to keep the plane afloat until help could arrive. Never fear when the honeybunny is near. Now is she could only fix computers...
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Post by Deleted on Jun 28, 2015 22:35:49 GMT -6
Sky..you're doomed. Lorelei I wouldn't worry about your dream because it has nothing to do with a plane. It has everything to do with feeling helpless and terrified for your baby when she was so sick. She was crashing..but fortunately...they had a life vest just her size in the skilled doctors that were there for her. It doesn't diminish the frustration and fear you had for her. It has to come out somewhere and I doubt your dreams would take you back to the hospital. Think good and positive thoughts..count your blessings before you sleep (and you have many) and like Sky says..that baby is invincible.
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