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Post by skywalker on Jul 1, 2012 21:25:37 GMT -6
It's not being avoided, I just haven't had time to properly think about it. Been busy working myself to death.
What do you mean that allergies and psy abilities are related? Are you suggesting that somebody is creating allergies to keep people's psychic abilities toned down? Who? The aliens...the gubment?
I personally don't think that psychic abilities are "alien"...I think all people have the potential to have them but they might be enhanced or magnified by an alien encounter...possibly in order to establish contact with certain people.
So the aliens could be enhancing people's psychic abilities to try to communicate and the government could be dumbing people down with chemicals (illegal drugs perhaps?) in order to stifle the communication attempt. That's something that would be believable.
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Post by lois on Jul 1, 2012 22:33:23 GMT -6
A lesion peels back the outer skin on the nerve and leaves it bare. Some times it cuts into the nerve itself. I read up on it. There were photos with a cut nerve, it told it could break completely apart. One would be losing his hearing in that ear. Mine has not progressed in the last eight years the doctors says. I told her.. It has not progressed in 40 years as it has been like this since 1972. I told her how I got it. I told her how I went down trying to pick up my son and swinging him around in the yard. It did what the water in the park did . But this event happen only two days after my encounter. Scared everyone to see me lying there on the ground yelling my brain is moving up against my skull and turning completely around in my head. This is exactly how it feels. It has happened so many times I could never tell how many times.
Yes they say one can, no more spinal taps for me as it can do more harm on the brain. I was sick for days after and a screaming headache. for two weeks , my husband went to the Doctors office and said you have to help my wife . She is in so much pain, she screams from morning to morning. Not morning to night. Well she says she could have a hole in her spine from the needle and it has to be patched. They call ed it a blood patch. I was there for an hour , they put needles in every part of my hand and wrist and elbow even. Then they tried taking blood from each finger. They must of stabbed my bones about 60 times .. still no blood .. I can't even remember how and when they got it out of me. but they got a drop and put it into the hole in my spine. At first I thought it may be working, but when I got home the head was not better . in a few days it got a lttle better. In six months my head starting feeling half normal. But since they did that four years ago. I have the falling of the brain in my head more often. I was just getting to where my head did not have any time of seizure for about three years ..
Then they did the spinal tap twice when they seen the MRI results. One right after the MRI and one two years later. NEVER AGAIN. .. the harm was done that night by the ufo and my brain has always stayed at the same stage of effects. I told the neurologist this eight years ago.
I think she has come to the same conclusion finally. but if she decides to do another spinal tap she has been informed by me loud and clear. No More.
She first thought MS, but did test on my muscles. I laughed at her, yes I really did. I told her I would be dead by now if it was MS. She told me in one sentence after the test . Lois you do not have MS. Like you said this has never progressed.
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Post by lois on Jul 1, 2012 22:42:15 GMT -6
Note . I had two ugly hands and arms for about four months after all that needle stabbing. Black and blue was hardly the word for it. I could open my fingers at all or use a fork. Darn why are doctors so stupid. Could they not see they were not getting blood? Two nurses was helping him holding my fingers apart for each one he did . Then this one nurse got a needle and joined him by going up and down my other arm trying to get blood. So you see why Never Again will I do a spinal tap .
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Post by lois on Jul 1, 2012 22:47:04 GMT -6
I think the brain really is the 'final' frontier. There is so much we do not know about it..or how many things we could fix if we knew how. Our own personal computer. I have programs for my computer I can run that tell me what hardware or software is faulty..that would be a cool thing to have for the brain Yes it would . Science is really doing some amazing things with research on the brain. I keep up with it from time to time . One TV program a year ago was telling our memories could be from our parents handed down. I though how crazy is that? Maybe it is related to why one has passed Lives. ;D ;D
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Post by Deleted on Jul 2, 2012 10:10:53 GMT -6
I'm not trying to avoid a subject..I didn't see it. I don't feel there is a connection between allergies and psi abilities and aliens. I don't have allergies. I do on occasion have sinus battles because of the local pollen and I do have some sort of tango going on over aesthetics (which I'll try to stay away from in the future). My first 'visit' was as a child my second (and as far as I truly know..last) was when I was 16. I didn't even develop any sinus problems until my 30's or so and those are just during the heavy pollen months. I think they are attracted to people who have some psi abilities and these are amplified by strong emotion so possibly they are interested in the combination which they don't seem to possess. They seem to have racial psychic abilities..hatched with or born with..ours are more whether it has developed in that part of our brain or not. We may all have them..but they don't develop in everyone the same way as they do with the creatures. I will not personalize those things. I do not think they are trying to either develop psychic abilities or stifle them. I think they are just drawn to those people who have them. Possibly we send out beacons on some psychic band level they intercept. Sure an answer of why they are interested would be cool but maybe certain people just stand out to them for examination. How many of you are red heads with green eyes and B blood type and psychic? Betcha not many..but how many of you have some latent psychic ability? Premonitions..visions..warnings..good guessers..see ghosts..'feel' things..have an affinity to animals...etc. Betcha a lot more here do..which is why I keep coming back to that as the only link I can think of. Still..I think it's just an attractant..it connects us to them even in a small way and maybe their 'mind adjustments' can only work on someone who has some psychic ability. In my opinion anyhow
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Post by lois on Jul 2, 2012 20:59:01 GMT -6
I'm all those Jo, but type O. I do not think their is any connection with any of these to Aliens myself. The real reason some get chosen may be beyond our understanding. Something more alien and complexed. We do not know their alien mind at all and what it can do for one thing. I only believe they come back to the same people over and over again. So they do not forget those they have visited. All this human race down here , they either have good memories or a long list computerized names somehow for us. When we leave this world .. what do they do then? Delete our names? ;D
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Post by Deleted on Jul 3, 2012 2:24:53 GMT -6
Lois is a redhead too?
Lolz... my sisters!!! ~hugz Lois and Jo and jumps up and down~
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Post by Deleted on Jul 3, 2012 11:49:38 GMT -6
Wow ;D
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Post by dawnoftime on Apr 8, 2013 9:02:24 GMT -6
I know this is an old post, but I am just now getting brave enough to talk about my own experiences and BOY did this post ring out! I didn't have the severe asthma and allergies I have now until the abductions reached their peak (I had been abducted since I was a toddler, but then a cluster around 7 -- got sick at 8). Interestingly, in terms of the post discussions about sensitivities and psy stuff, I have felt for a long time that being a "highly permeable" person (for lack of a better term) meant that I was highly permeable on all levels. Hence the sensitivity to allergens, energy, and notably sensory input. I was a fairly happy and well balanced child, but my sensory sensitivities became so pronounced over time That I have been diagnosed with autism (the social problems from autism stem from being too overwhelmed by the environment to process things). I am finally piecing together that all these things stem from the abductions, which I have pushed to the back of my mind for over 40 years. So weird -- I am a memoir writer for a living, and yet I have been unable to be open about my abduction experiences. My asthma improved for many years, by the way, but I was drawn obsessively to return home to Southern Illinois after living on the West Coast for years, and now I am experiencing abduction-type phenomena again and my health is crashing.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 8, 2013 10:34:19 GMT -6
Have you tried a Nebulizer? My sister has severe asthma and she says it works better than any inhaler out there on the market.
I know that you mentioned on another thread that you are an "Aspie". My ex fiance was an Aspie and he told me he figured I was also because of my behavior. I was never diagnosed with it as a child (and there is no adult test for it he said) but he was certain I was like him.
1) I was obsessed with music and words as a child(this is the defining trait of Aspies... the child becomes obsessed with a subject which he/she cannot let go of and the child obsessively studies and learns about it at a very very young age.. for me that was playing with a toy keyboard for hours on end every day).
2) I've always had social problems including social anxiety.
I may not be an Aspie, but I can totally empathize Dawn, believe me.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 8, 2013 15:15:11 GMT -6
Apparently a bunch of us are writers..or would be writers. I started writing poetry by 6 because I loved the rhyming flow..I wrote stories at 8 that the teacher thought I had plagiarized from somewhere..my dad had to go to school over that one. When my stepmother arrived on the scene with her organ..she showed me how to play the thing (2 keyboard chord organ) taught me music for the right hand in two lessons and I obsessed over the thing..it was so soothing..I'd play for hours whenever they were not around until eventually she would sit and listen and compliment (something no one ever did). You'd think maybe lessons..but nope..they were entirely self serving folk. I don't have asthma or severe allergies..other than a sensitivity to anesthetic. I don't do well with it and I don't stay under well. My system really does come up fighting and I'm sure it has to do with my abduction. So many things we have in common that are not on any lists ;D
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Post by plutronus on Apr 8, 2013 21:06:28 GMT -6
Apparently a bunch of us are writers..or would be writers. I started writing poetry by 6 because I loved the rhyming flow..I wrote stories at 8 that the teacher thought I had plagiarized from somewhere..my dad had to go to school over that one. When my stepmother arrived on the scene with her organ..she showed me how to play the thing (2 keyboard chord organ) taught me music for the right hand in two lessons and I obsessed over the thing..it was so soothing..I'd play for hours whenever they were not around until eventually she would sit and listen and compliment (something no one ever did). You'd think maybe lessons..but nope..they were entirely self serving folk. I don't have asthma or severe allergies..other than a sensitivity to anesthetic. I don't do well with it and I don't stay under well. My system really does come up fighting and I'm sure it has to do with my abduction. So many things we have in common that are not on any lists ;D >Apparently a bunch of us are writers..or would be writers.
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Post by dawnoftime on Apr 8, 2013 21:23:54 GMT -6
I know that you mentioned on another thread that you are an "Aspie". My ex fiance was an Aspie and he told me he figured I was also because of my behavior. I was never diagnosed with it as a child (and there is no adult test for it he said) but he was certain I was like him. Thanks Lorelei, I appreciate what you said here and on the other post. I do have a nebulizer. I am unfortunately what they call a "Class 4" asthmatic -- I've been comatose from it before -- so I kind of limp along on several things -- I appreciate your suggestion, though, that was very sweet and I appreciate your caring. By the way, there is an adult test for Asperger's -- it is just somewhat subjective and the outcome depends on how well-educated the examiner (psychiatrist/psychologist) is. Isn't that so often the case! I think that le anything else a diagnosis is helpful in some ways and not in others -- it just depends on what you need it for. You seem very educated on the subject, so please believe I'm not trying to tell you things you already know! I think it is a completely fascinating frontier to think about autism/Asperger's being connected in some way with abduction phenomena. I tour around speaking about ASD and try to convey that I think it is somehow a very old, but very new way of being, if that makes sense.
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Post by dawnoftime on Apr 8, 2013 21:31:26 GMT -6
Apparently a bunch of us are writers..or would be writers. I started writing poetry by 6 because I loved the rhyming flow..I wrote stories at 8 that the teacher thought I had plagiarized from somewhere..my dad had to go to school over that one. Oh, I LOVEd this post! How interesting to hear about the writing phenomenon! I have been lucky enough to be able to write for a living (mostly memoir/anthropology books). I remember my first poem, at 5 -- my cousin stepped on and smashed a crab claw that I had picked up off the beach in Florida. It went: I really loved it, but now it is gone, next time I see it, my name won't be Dawn. My mom kind of freaked out because it was so dark and death was a subtext, etc. She told me to lighten up. LOL I think I read on here that abductees are often drawn to do really new or expressive things, like math or music, or writing. I'm sure critics would say we're the kind of people prone to delusion, but I think most people here would agree that's putting the cart before the horse..?
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Post by dawnoftime on Apr 8, 2013 21:38:30 GMT -6
That reminds me that as sensitive as I am to so many "regular" things -- I, too am hard to anesthetize. For example, I will tell my dentist (arg. Every time), "I am very hard to make numb." They always give a "reassuring" smile and pat my shoulder. "There, there, Ma'am." I can almost hear them say. I know what's coming. They give me a shot. Drill. Scream. Another shot. Drill. Scream. And so forth. it usually takes 4-5 shots to get my mouth numb enough to work on. Last time I had a filling I ended up looking like a stroke victim, with one side of my face sliding off. But still pain. Dang. LOL
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Post by lois on Apr 8, 2013 21:46:49 GMT -6
Lois, I'm thankful someone at least detected the lesions. I know that you'd want to know WHY they are there, but I also want to know if you can continue to get lesions on nerves? yes you can Jc. that is why they think I should have these spinal taps. I told them it has not changed physically in over forty years it is not going to now. I could tell by my symptoms which have not changed. They agreed the second tap showed no new lesions. They say it is not MS. I knew that also as after forty years you would think MS would of progressed for sure.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 9, 2013 1:34:37 GMT -6
That reminds me that as sensitive as I am to so many "regular" things -- I, too am hard to anesthetize. For example, I will tell my dentist (arg. Every time), "I am very hard to make numb." They always give a "reassuring" smile and pat my shoulder. "There, there, Ma'am." I can almost hear them say. I know what's coming. They give me a shot. Drill. Scream. Another shot. Drill. Scream. And so forth. it usually takes 4-5 shots to get my mouth numb enough to work on. ME TOO!!!! I TOTALLY know that feeling... yea... I know what's coming... They never listen to/believe me either.... I wrote a novel between the ages of 12 and 15... a science fiction novel about aliens trying to take over the world... had a few poems published before I graduated from high school. I stopped writing after high school and started writing songs instead...
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Post by Deleted on Apr 9, 2013 1:37:44 GMT -6
Thanks Lorelei, I appreciate what you said here and on the other post. I do have a nebulizer. I am unfortunately what they call a "Class 4" asthmatic -- I've been comatose from it before -- so I kind of limp along on several things -- I appreciate your suggestion, though, that was very sweet and I appreciate your caring. Sorry to read that Dawn... By the way, there is an adult test for Asperger's -- it is just somewhat subjective and the outcome depends on how well-educated the examiner (psychiatrist/psychologist) is. Isn't that so often the case! ~nods~ Interesting. I don't think I need to get tested though... I think that le anything else a diagnosis is helpful in some ways and not in others -- it just depends on what you need it for. You seem very educated on the subject, so please believe I'm not trying to tell you things you already know! I wouldn't use the word "educated"... more along the lines of I learned about it from living with an Aspie who often talked about it... I think it is a completely fascinating frontier to think about autism/Asperger's being connected in some way with abduction phenomena. I tour around speaking about ASD and try to convey that I think it is somehow a very old, but very new way of being, if that makes sense. A lot of experiencers/abductees tend to be very intelligent people. Aspies are, by definition, very intelligent people... like Plutronus said- right brainers...
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Post by Deleted on Apr 9, 2013 1:40:41 GMT -6
Jo- I didn't know you were very musically inclined... wow! You should have mentioned that earlier... ~huggggz~ Sorry you parental units were not very supportive... that makes me angry...
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Post by Deleted on Apr 9, 2013 10:07:43 GMT -6
LOL..at parental units ;D In every bad situation there needs to be found some good to prevent insanity. When my father remarried (gigilo that he was) my stepmother had no desire to raise another child especially one as wild and untended as I was. He had left me with my sister who was only 7 years older than I was..at the time she was 15 and more interested in her teen life. My hair didn't get brushed..my close were not clean..I was a free child..no matter what time it was and I must have looked like pig pen. She was a socialite..with an image to protect..and from her..I learned how to conduct myself at a formal dinner party..how to take care of my personal self..and to have perfect behavior in front of her friends. I thank her for that to this day. She ignored until there was something she needed to fix. My father had me painting horse corrals with creosote one fine hot day..and did not tell me to protect my face from burn splash..I had burns all over my face and they stung so bad I was crying..well Eleanor grabs me up without saying a word..and took me up into the mountains where it had snowed..told me to roll the window down and she just drove around for a couple of hours in the cold air until the pain went away..she never said a thing about it though..she just did it. My upbringing was odd and conflicted but..I am who I am I suppose because of it. Maybe I wouldn't have developed my 'traits' if they had been more attentive. Usually..when I was growing..if I really needed something..it would be provided by some unseen hand. I guess if I ever wrote it all down it would surprise me. ;D
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Post by sunbow on Apr 9, 2013 19:57:37 GMT -6
I also started writing at a very young age and have written poetry steadily my whole life. I am very much into writing, but don't make much money at it. I am also a musician, another love which does not pay the bills. So I have been doing database programming, and while I hate the corporate environment and don't fit in (not even close), I can program artistically with elegance which works. I also love doing Art. I guess these creative outlets are a way to cope with an inner need to express what common words are hard pressed to convey.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 10, 2013 9:58:14 GMT -6
My 'art' outlet is doing web graphics. I design logo's, banners and such. Funny too..I don't have a head for math but I've always wanted to study physics..I can see the elegance in math equations I'm distinctly right brained but I think I crave more of a balance.
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Post by dawnoftime on Apr 11, 2013 10:25:11 GMT -6
LOL..at parental units ;D In every bad situation there needs to be found some good to prevent insanity. When my father remarried (gigilo that he was) my stepmother had no desire to raise another child especially one as wild and untended as I was. He had left me with my sister who was only 7 years older than I was..at the time she was 15 and more interested in her teen life. My hair didn't get brushed..my close were not clean..I was a free child..no matter what time it was and I must have looked like pig pen. She was a socialite..with an image to protect..and from her..I learned how to conduct myself at a formal dinner party..how to take care of my personal self..and to have perfect behavior in front of her friends. I thank her for that to this day. She ignored until there was something she needed to fix. My father had me painting horse corrals with creosote one fine hot day..and did not tell me to protect my face from burn splash..I had burns all over my face and they stung so bad I was crying..well Eleanor grabs me up without saying a word..and took me up into the mountains where it had snowed..told me to roll the window down and she just drove around for a couple of hours in the cold air until the pain went away..she never said a thing about it though..she just did it. My upbringing was odd and conflicted but..I am who I am I suppose because of it. Maybe I wouldn't have developed my 'traits' if they had been more attentive. Usually..when I was growing..if I really needed something..it would be provided by some unseen hand. I guess if I ever wrote it all down it would surprise me. ;D I'm sorry about all you have been through, even though you have a good attitude about it. I had odd parents, too. Not a lot of "warm fuzzies" -- if you get my understatement. As I said in a different post, my dad went through the typical experiences of a child raised by an alcoholic, as well as being traumatized by abduction. His "fear of invasion" comes out in strange ways, like having his computer so secure I can't sned him pictures even though he doesn't use it for anything other than email. He shreds aevery piece of paper that comes in the mail. He has Parkinson's now and is too weak and uncoordinated to shoot a gun (he's more likely to blow his own arm off) but he insisted on buying one recently. Right after my own flurry of abductions around 6-9 years old he got obsessed with leaving our house and hiding in the wilderness of Montana, What is interesting to me is that some people take these abduction experiences and put a positive spin on them, and others can't -- and in life in general, too.
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Post by sunbow on Apr 11, 2013 11:46:11 GMT -6
It may be the philosophy of life more than the actual nature of the events. I know I am just visiting here and even though I have my possessiveness to the life I have carved out, I have taken many things in my life as opportunities for growth. When we are teenagers we tend to set ourselves as diametrically opposed to our parents, then as we age, we readjust our relationship. When we are in the middle of things we are caught up, but later, if we reflect (a big if), we usually find that our present character is richer due to the factors in our life.
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Post by dawnoftime on Apr 12, 2013 14:00:24 GMT -6
It may be the philosophy of life more than the actual nature of the events. I know I am just visiting here and even though I have my possessiveness to the life I have carved out, I have taken many things in my life as opportunities for growth. When we are teenagers we tend to set ourselves as diametrically opposed to our parents, then as we age, we readjust our relationship. When we are in the middle of things we are caught up, but later, if we reflect (a big if), we usually find that our present character is richer due to the factors in our life. Good points. I think it is interesting that even though I have had trouble with my dad -- and not the typical trouble kids have, but the kind that makes it difficult for him to deal with most people -- we have all remained close in our family. I have always found a way to come and spend time with them several times a year, even when I was broke, somehow. I think it has helped that we really do share the same value system and always have. They are real stewards of the land and always have been. I have always admired their stance on most things. My own son has so far followed this path. Sometimes I think it is harder for kids in that position -- as you said, it seems a lot of kids need to "break free" and find themselves and then come back. Anyway, I still call my mom and dad and sister every time something significant happens in my life, or even interesting daily things. We have all talked about addiction and drinking in the family, abusive of different kinds, etc. The alien experience stuff is the only oppressive sort of "don't go there" in my family. I think it is, as I said, because dad has just been left so traumatized by it and his coping behaviors around it are extreme.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 12, 2013 22:25:53 GMT -6
My parents were all four (counting step mother and father) alcololics. I have a desperate fear of anything that could be considered addictive. I feel so bad for your father..it's very hard to see people go through an extreme addiction. Temper rages, abuse..the sloppy, disgusting drunk of it..and under that..can be such different people...until it's too late and they can't recapture being human at all. Yep..I'm a little bitter about the waste of that
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Post by sunbow on Apr 13, 2013 8:32:31 GMT -6
I seek freedom. Though I had a few problems of my own when I was younger, I do not want any thing controlling me. To be fully human we must not be under the influence of anything.
Alcohol is one of the worst drugs to get trapped by. TV and Video games can also suck a soul in and leave an empty life. It takes a strong spirit and much awareness to draw the lines. I have never had an alcohol problem, so I can drink a beer after cutting the grass on a hot day and enjoy it. There are three beers in the fridge from last year. I have other friends who have drowned in it. Anything in excess is out of balance. We have to each find our own weaknesses and deal with them.
We all have our things that we use to dull ourselves, but when I recognize one, it becomes my enemy and I break free. My philosophy is to increase consciousness and awareness in all aspects of life as much as possible. We want to help others, but every person has to do their own work. We just need to love others and know that they walk in their own shoes and choose their own path. By living as fully free human beings as we are able to and sharing time non-judgmentally, sometimes we are a help and comfort. My humbleness lets me know that I have things to work on that I am not even seeing at this point in time and others that I am struggling with. Our feelings and emotions arise, we cannot stop that, but our reaction and attachment to them is our own.
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Post by dawnoftime on Apr 14, 2013 4:26:54 GMT -6
My parents were all four (counting step mother and father) alcololics. I have a desperate fear of anything that could be considered addictive. I feel so bad for your father..it's very hard to see people go through an extreme addiction. Temper rages, abuse..the sloppy, disgusting drunk of it..and under that..can be such different people...until it's too late and they can't recapture being human at all. Yep..I'm a little bitter about the waste of that And I don't blame you, honey. Please know I'm on your side. I remember saying out loud so many times, "Dad, this is your one and only life that we know of. There is pain, yes, but so much beauty. Can't you find some joy in living...in the fact that you are loved?" But it has just been too hard for him. To give him the great respect he is due, he didn't drink past when I was a toddler. He knew he wanted to be a responsible family man. And in terms of violence and irresponsibility, he did much better than his father and step father. He just didn't have the tools to make things work and had no idea how to get them, so he was a "dry drunk" with all the rage and ugliness that comes with that. Now that he has Parkinson's there have been some very, very touching moments between us: he can't hardly speak anymore and he's more depressed than ever, but when I'm there he will silently, tremblingly reach out to hold my hand and just look at me with tenderness. It would be easy to feel like it is too little too late. And sometimes I feel angry feelings at the "waste" of time and mistakes he's made that hurt me on so many emotional and physical levels. But I force myself to soak up those moments, because they amount to a tremendous breakthrough for him. A lot of people -- especially addicts and alcoholics -- never get to that point. Two of the uncles that I grew up with and who lived with us at times were heroin addicts. When I think of them I always think of that old (not so funny) joke "How do you know an addict/alcoholic is lying? Their lips are moving." My uncles certainly never made it to where my dad is trying to get to now -- they died of Hep C from dirty needles before middle age. I don't know if they, too, experienced alien encounters, but they were very sensitive people and drank and drugged to dull the pain. I think of ways my dad, who seemed to never quite find his "mission" could have done amazing things. Who am I to say he didn't play his part, though? I'm too small to know these things. I do know, though, that I am sorry for what you've been through. XO
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Post by dawnoftime on Apr 14, 2013 4:35:12 GMT -6
I seek freedom. Though I had a few problems of my own when I was younger, I do not want any thing controlling me. To be fully human we must not be under the influence of anything. Alcohol is one of the worst drugs to get trapped by. TV and Video games can also suck a soul in and leave an empty life. It takes a strong spirit and much awareness to draw the lines. I have never had an alcohol problem, so I can drink a beer after cutting the grass on a hot day and enjoy it. There are three beers in the fridge from last year. I have other friends who have drowned in it. Anything in excess is out of balance. We have to each find our own weaknesses and deal with them. We all have our things that we use to dull ourselves, but when I recognize one, it becomes my enemy and I break free. My philosophy is to increase consciousness and awareness in all aspects of life as much as possible. We want to help others, but every person has to do their own work. We just need to love others and know that they walk in their own shoes and choose their own path. By living as fully free human beings as we are able to and sharing time non-judgmentally, sometimes we are a help and comfort. My humbleness lets me know that I have things to work on that I am not even seeing at this point in time and others that I am struggling with. Our feelings and emotions arise, we cannot stop that, but our reaction and attachment to them is our own. Thank you for that observation, and I agree. I think that why these comments are still so relevant in the "allergies" section is that, to me, it is all based on sensitivities. People who are sensitive to things on every level of the environment are more likely to self medicate. Good for you -- and any of us -- who can try to stay as clean as we can and stll cope with all those feelings. I have had successes and failures around this in my own life, so I sure understand the temptation. Martial arts helped me. I learned a lot of discipline and awareness from that. I remember being greatly disturbed by a study they did some years ago where they were trying to make chimps in a lab become alcoholics -- and succeeded. I still find it very upsetting that someone would do such an experiment on a living thing. Of course it is interesting to listen to stories of what some here on this site have been through and know that they feel the same has been done to them on some level.
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Post by skywalker on Apr 14, 2013 8:08:54 GMT -6
If I was a chimp in a lab I would probably become an alcoholic too.
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