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Post by jojustjo on Apr 22, 2019 22:50:54 GMT -6
You are absolutely NOT crazy for being a sensitive.
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Post by jojustjo on Apr 9, 2019 10:24:37 GMT -6
I'd like to think that as we age we become less 'reactive' more inclined to think first before jumping off the cliff. I know what the alien was doing in my bedroom....just marking his territory. Still in my mind...it 'intercepted' my very passionate tearful prayers and it was attracted. That IS the one thing I have that is different from most I know. I am overly emotional over prayer. When I pray it's with a passion and usually with tears...I don't mean to...it just happens. I don't think it's just because I'm a Leo. And it actually works against the psychic self.. It's why we meditate...to clear the mind. Very hard for me to do. When I hit menopause...I didn't. Like my heart attacks are not normal (just throw up) that wasn't either. I cried for a week straight. Sent my husband and daughter off to a horse show and I stayed home and cried...over EVERYTHING....over NOTHING. Then it was done. No mood swings or hot flashes etc. So..something in these small differences caught the attention of 'them'. When my husband died...when my son died...I didn't cry but a very little at night when no one was around..I didn't grieve..but I KNOW they're happy that their well-being is looked after. So this odd emotion when I'm 'consulting' the heavens is different. But I am also still overly reactive. I fret and worry over things I have no control over...while presenting a calm front of course, cause my father didn't like the whole tearful thing. If they had not arrived..would I still be as open minded as I am? Nope. I never laugh at tales of the tales of bigfoot or the jersey devil or the devil himself because I know it's all possible...probably probable. It's not enough to know possibilities anymore though I want to know the realities. It's getting worse. I walk the dogs at night I am constantly looking up feeling drawn..a real pull..or need. So again...lots more questions than answers.
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Post by jojustjo on Apr 6, 2019 23:48:37 GMT -6
I think that a lot of missing people are murders or some misfortune. I honestly don't think that aliens have been snatching (and keeping) human beings. Or having them for a snack on a long trip. I do KNOW aliens abduct people but nope I don't think they keep them. Wayyyy too much trouble..have to freeze them or feed them and provide sanitary stuff...that's a lot of inconvenience. Freezing would be ok I guess...not so much trouble but I still think nah... Maybe some of them stumble into portals leading elsewhere...ya know...anything is possible right?
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 31, 2019 23:27:26 GMT -6
Actually I just like to get you talking to see where you lead yourself. I really do care. I was wondering about you. I truly did wonder what you wanted in your life. What would make you happy. Personally I AM happy....or maybe closer would be I am not unhappy. This is where God has me now. I AM ..that I AM. I get little clues..little answers. I prayed and prayed for my son to get 'just the right job' for him and wow...he did. I was asking as much for me as for him.
What do I want today? Play hookey and drive somewhere lovely...stare at the sky and let my mind go all whimsy on me. That won't happen though. Obligations first. Wednesday is my day off...maybe I'll just do that . LOL planning to be spontaneous...omy.
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 29, 2019 23:28:31 GMT -6
True that...you do make others think
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 28, 2019 23:38:31 GMT -6
Wellllllll...long pause. What I do see is that you find a lot of ways to either put yourself down, or convince yourself you're not nuts. You are NOT by the way by any means. I never see you give yourself credit for achievement and it IS important to 'own' yourself..like yourself.. You seem on a frantic mission to find 'something' but what? I know I am looking and not having a clue as to what I'm hunting......you kind of pick on yourself and well..I'm waiting to hear you say the good things about this person I like. You and Paulette have things in common...you're both struggling to help others...(her husband..your parents) ...you have the ability to keep yourselves busy and you're both very clever..smart ladies. I just am not sure you're very happy ones. Some phrase keeps popping up for me and when that happens it's usually a real question... "What DO you want?" I don't have a clue....really and I've been thinking about it. Son just got a job at the airport where daughter and I work...now I have both of them under my eye so to speak and that should make me delirious. Does give me a huge sense of relief..but...whine whine...what IS it I'm looking for??? All I can do is be thankful for what I have and wait So be it.
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 25, 2019 22:41:43 GMT -6
yeah..and while they may be starting to believe..I hope it isn't some great shock if they land not looking like movie stars. Someday we'll know a LOT more than we do.
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 25, 2019 22:38:32 GMT -6
To be honest I haven't the slightest interest in 'them' anymore...something soothed that itch..broke the string...whatever...I just accept what was and go on. Best advice I've been given...something an angel was reported to say...I don't have 'time' I have now. So the past is gone...can't be influenced (or not yet and should most likely not ever be) the future is not yet may never be...we have now. Today this moment to do what we do with the best mind and effort we can...be aware of what is around us...be grateful and live...today. I like it. Simple. Like someone else who said...you are what you are...what else can you be?
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 21, 2019 22:25:09 GMT -6
Well...maybe that is one of the 'reasons' for them..and to those who have seen them. It's an eye opener. You don't see the world in exactly the same way. You LOOK...you seek...you basically hunt for what others don't see or can't or won't. You know something that a lot of people don't. Can't take it back. But I wonder if you'd be on this knowledge merry go round you're on...if it hadn't been for 'them'. I wouldn't most likely. Silly little tom boy farm girl...horses...overly strict father...aliens...LOL See how that all fits??? LMAO. Lonely kid...too responsible...huge imagination that got one hulluva booster shot.....meant to be..was..is..
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 20, 2019 22:49:42 GMT -6
I rarely protest anything in here any more but that was crude.
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 17, 2019 10:12:49 GMT -6
Or maybe a better brain conductor for them
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 16, 2019 23:07:03 GMT -6
horrific stuff.
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 16, 2019 10:11:59 GMT -6
Prayers for the families and victims of the Mosque shootings..for all of those lost to bigotry and hatred that's growing in our world.
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 12, 2019 23:48:34 GMT -6
They give him hours to talk because it's his right, not because they want to listen. Our judicial system gives him that right and the right of appeals over and over (at the expense of tax payers). There will be a movie...a book...those crime dramas on tv...those trying to understand how it's possible for someone to do that. There will be those who are positive it's a demonic possession....or the devil himself who made him do it. I don't think the 'devil' makes anyone do anything. He did this but he may never own it...because then he would have to face the fact that he really IS the monster. How much of this has been going on..is purely insane. A little girls body over the weekend was found in a suitcase...mom had not turned in an amber alert...boyfriend is arrested. A little boy a toddler...is wandering a local freeway off ramp at 12 midnight hit by a car....thank heavens he saw a motion and swerved and just clipped the little guy. Mom of course races to the hospital looking for her missing child. Little boy and his sister found dead ...beaten and starved. Parents arrested...it goes on and on. In some horrible way the little girls were lucky to die quickly..when I think of a 6 year old girl and an 8 year old brother..beaten and starved...oh and the best one...mother of the year who breaks her infants arms (both) and the child is given back because the mother is so contrite? What are her odds? Why the children??
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 11, 2019 23:49:44 GMT -6
I still figure if they wanted the darned place they would have had it long ago. I am more inclined to believe the account of Boyd Bushman who makes such a credible case of working with aliens for the government. www.inquisitr.com/1569327/ufos-are-real-top-area-51-scientist-reveals-in-deathbed-video-18-aliens-work-for-u-s-govt/I find it more interesting that there are other alien species interested in planet earth but protocols that prevent them from any kind of snatch and grab. I do like to think there is some kind of organization in the universe and that the greys are pretty far down on the alien totem pole. According to him and his near death bed confession (which also makes sense to me given his high security rating) aliens still do work with the government..some of the beings he said were over 250 years old. I always wondered how we went from floppy's to flash drives so quickly LOL.
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 11, 2019 23:37:49 GMT -6
In a nutshell that's a really good synopsis. Being human is all I can be right now Not many choices there on the board are there? LOL
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 9, 2019 10:23:42 GMT -6
Know my bizarre thoughts lately? Lucifer. Can you imagine how God must have felt over that situation? I know what it's like to lose a son and Lucifer was a favorite...had to be so very sad on a level we can't even touch base with. Granted Lucifer wouldn't want human pity that's for sure, he didn't seem to like us much but it's just not pity. Imagine having all that and still not being happy? A tiny bit like the big celebrities who spiral down into drugs and booze even though they have fan adoration, fortune..success. They commit suicide or overdose or mentally lose it in some other torturous way. What is it about humanity not allowing itself to be happy? At least for very long. No one else needs to punish us when we do such a fine job ourselves. Some strange restlessness built in that ever pines for a home we can't remember? I know...sometimes when I look up at the moon...or at some landscape or another...I feel a longing so sharp it's an ache. What the heck are we?
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 9, 2019 10:17:23 GMT -6
Ahhhh the neighbors want to come for a barbeque. Long as we are not it...I'm down with it.
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 9, 2019 10:15:12 GMT -6
Ah...it worked for the vikings...hoisting my dainty glass of wine in your direction..hmm...east? south east? Well....that 'general' mental direction Sláinte!!!
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 8, 2019 9:47:18 GMT -6
Groans very loudly. Shaking my head..eyeing Cliff and JC...yep gonna be one of THOSE years. I think making cookies is a great idea. I'd rather have a glass of wine tho instead of the Millers. I'm not fond of beer unless it's icy cold and 110 outside.
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 5, 2019 0:01:39 GMT -6
I hope he settles in well for his sake, yours and above all, your mom's. Some people just can't exist 'alone' ...that's what I call being apart from God
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 4, 2019 0:49:58 GMT -6
Nobody 'does' their life without Jesus or God. Just because someone doesn't have faith doesn't mean they are not still loved and cared for. They may not ask for help but I think help isn't that far away.. We just think we have the 'edge' by caring/loving/believing..but it has so often been said...God loves ALL of his children..he may not like all they do...but he loves. I never did the menopause thing. There was a point in time when I went for two weeks crying. I cried over songs..I cried ..I just cried...for two weeks. I was not sick...didn't go to a doctor...then it stopped. Scared my kids to death LOL...never had sweats or any of the other symptoms..things just stopped one day. From what I have noticed in others..I'm rather glad about it. I would have been a very evil menopausal woman. My left ear has 'rung' since the visit I had at age 7 or 6 can't remember which actually. Never stops but over the years I have learned to tune it out mostly...sometimes its so loud I can't. I seem to get more curious the older I get...more interest in the world around me...the unseen things that I know are there...I can feel em...I just can't see them. Some financial stress...son out of work trying to help him..and keep our heads above....keep paddling LOL. I know things will get better. Hope your parents are on the mend...hang in there... And don't ever stop being curious.
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 4, 2019 0:46:28 GMT -6
I think a lot of science fiction writers aren't writing fiction
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Post by jojustjo on Feb 27, 2019 13:22:27 GMT -6
well...I hope mother nature just rears up and does a fix herself. We may not like it...but considering others don't want to do anything...maybe that's the only hope.
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Post by jojustjo on Feb 17, 2019 11:45:24 GMT -6
You're right.....a story that HAD to be told...to the right person to hear it Others have mentioned the white hair..hope he shares more
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Post by jojustjo on Feb 11, 2019 0:20:22 GMT -6
That's great Paulette...I'm happy they could help him and you
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Post by jojustjo on Feb 4, 2019 11:23:24 GMT -6
I used to train and show horses for several clients..most of them on the older side...some of them major whiners...but ALL of them had one thing in common...they were paying a LOT of money not just to me but in entry fees, hotel rooms, meals etc to WIN. They did not want to come in second or third. Most of my horses were performance animals..but a few were 'halter' horses ..judged on conformation and the ability to stand there and look cute. Huge amounts of money were paid for these horses some in the $200,000 range. Performance horses not so much..they won by how well I could train them to perform obstacle classes, drive with the clients sitting there holding reins like they were actually doing something. My daughter showed in a lot of these classes for the clients. One jumping class she had 6 of the horses in a 7 horse class and as they were 'mini's' she had to run the course while they jumped. We were the best performance stable..because I couldn't take the whining if they lost and because I think God took pity on me. They were not good losers....but in those classes when they competed against each other...you would see the true meaning of dissapointment and faked happy emotion...they couldn't all win.. I imagine the super bowl...a bit like our year end Nationals..when horses came from as far away as Canada..to Texas where we all fought fang and claw...because...if your horse won...people admired it and wanted to pay a LOT of money to breed to it..or buy it. The pressure, long hours, lack of sleep and food...made us all a bit daffy but pretty tough too. We were always on the road to some state or another to 'qualify' for the National show..a certain amount of points required for each class. Had to get the points 'win' or they didn't get to compete in the biggie. Did that for 11 years until most of my clients retired or died and I wore out LOL...but it kept my daughter into horses and not boys for years and she got to play dress up in prom dresses every time she drove a horse for a client...looking like a movie star hauled around by this adorable little creature. During one of those shows I had a heart attack and didn't know it..I thought I had the flu because I couldn't stop throwing up..see...God travels. I didn't die and the doctor who did my bypass surgery years later found the scars from the first one...asking when did you have the other heart attack?? HUH? Other? When I got home from that show I went to the emergency room but they didn't catch it..apparently the heart had overcome. We are made of stern stuff. I took them to a show the next weekend. I'm sure my friend upstairs had some plan or has...I just haven't a clue what it is I'd appreciate a clue no end LOL These players are making enormous money but their careers are relatively short. You don't see many old football players still in the game. Baseball yes..not quite the contact sport. The injuries are hideous..and the loss is only comforted by the fact they got that far. To the Super Bowl. I enjoy college ball more than pro ball..the players are still playing because they like it..I think. Can't all win.
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Post by jojustjo on Feb 3, 2019 23:32:05 GMT -6
They probably don't like the 'feel' of anything chaotic...shrug..at a guess...I know I don't. So..in a way..your life does suck...I'm sure it hasn't exactly reached expectations you might have had for it once upon a time. We all fall into a bit of life-iss suck-iss from time to time...and that is perfectly fine to feel that way. I'm not on a gorgeous island somewhere with amazing waterfalls and waves lapping at the beach..sipping nectar from a glass Harold the handsome just brought me either LOL. Actually I'd be more apt to be building myself a gorgeous waterfall tumbling into a pool surrounded by plants I planted...sleeping in a hammock watching the stars sail by...no Harold the handsome...way to much trouble. To have the luxury of not making decisions for anyone else...now that would be amazing.
There is not a thing wrong with you...or me...we're ok. You hate to see your parents getting old and declining...and I'm sure my kids are terrified I will. I know my daughter suffered when I had to go to urgent care. All we do..affects someone...somewhere. And you are wayyy stronger than you give yourself credit for. You've had this blood disorder nipping at your heels for how long? If I had that hanging over my head...I wouldn't sound so cocky or brave...trust me. I think you're an amazing lady...spiritually rich...loving and caring...and those are the things that matter. It will be fine.
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Post by jojustjo on Feb 2, 2019 23:27:59 GMT -6
Some people (not saying you) find a kindness and validation from doctors they get nowhere else. It's about THEM and only them..all focus on the patient. That isn't a scrutiny I'm comfortable with..actually. Maybe some hold over from my 'great' adventure but I really am uncomfortable being poked and prodded. Made heart surgery oh so fun...daily blood letting...etc. Then too my father discouraged my sisters and I from being ill or needing a doctor. He almost killed my oldest sister when she was thrown from a horse and ruptured her spleen...she kept passing out and my mother had to step up and sign permission because he wouldn't. She was the first splenectomy in Southern Calif. When I was thrown from my horse and broke my arm...he kept insisting I was fine. He actually didn't want the doctor bills...and my step mother was Christian Scientist and they don't do doctors. I detested him so much toward the end that even when dead sick with the flu I still went to school to stay away from him..100 percent attendance LOL I continued the whole father thing...by marrying someone very much like him. The day I came home from having heart surgery he asked me to make him crepes...I did. So...I have only myself to blame for the patterns I've set. My children have the benefit of doctors when they've needed them and I raised my kids to be able to stand up for themselves. I'm proud of that.
JC who knows what we take from the experiences we've had...and some of yours have been pretty bizarre. When you know you have a blood condition that could land you in the hospital...I don't find it odd that you become very conscious of what your body is doing and what germs could be invading it. Who takes care of your parents if you get sick and go into the hospital? I worry about stuff like that because I take care of our bills..and I also take care of my son's..and their taxes...so I always worry if I'm not here...can't afford to be sick..I have to work. So I'll probably be a tad more cautious too.
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Post by jojustjo on Feb 2, 2019 23:15:11 GMT -6
it would be nice to know
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