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Post by jojustjo on Mar 29, 2019 23:28:31 GMT -6
True that...you do make others think
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Post by jcurio on Mar 30, 2019 16:21:38 GMT -6
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Post by jcurio on Mar 30, 2019 17:07:32 GMT -6
I just am not sure you're very happy ones. Some phrase keeps popping up for me and when that happens it's usually a real question... "What DO you want?" I don't have a clue....really and I've been thinking about it. Read more: theedgeofreality.proboards.com/thread/1418/who-simplistic-solutions-jc?page=105#ixzz5jhHhHjwp*********** I’m not going to try and convince you that I am happy. It wouldn’t help you “to be sure” 😉. What I want, these days, is an “unhealthy want”. I WANT to be left alone. I realize, that to constantly want, to be LEFT ALONE, (not just BE Alone), is more than an “old lady being selfish”. I “like” to mostly sit in a room, with a bunch of people all about, sometimes family, sometimes any one else, and just “hang out”. No rehearsals of what I’m going to say...... (should anyone REALLY ask me anything)....
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Post by jcurio on Mar 30, 2019 20:46:43 GMT -6
It’s that simple for me.
I’m at peace. I have a certain contentment that I almost feel that I should be ashamed of.
Because my heart aches for those who are hurting.
I have hurts. My “needs” go as far as having a dependable car to drive, and so, that would be my primary want.
If someone that has less than me sees me ungrateful, that would be a shame also. ______________________
I want to respond to people in general, like they are my clients. It sounds silly; I know. My clients are paying me. They have a list of things that I CAN do for them. But I try to make my work for them a little bright spot in their day. Over time, I figure out what “teasing” I can get away with, and when 😉. That’s the hard part. Because people can be downright mean. Somehow, some days, I have a gift of changing their mood. So my challenge has been, and always will be, changing someone who doesn’t care for me, into someone who doesn’t mind having me around. But mainly, I don’t mind my clients asking me to do things, that I already know that I’m supposed to do. Why does it “irk” me to be asked to do things when I am not on the job?? Seriously. I try not to let this “irritation” show, but I can’t understand why I can’t change this about myself?
So, when I sound “unhappy”, it’s because I have found that I can’t change something. Some of you found out that fact long ago, and just blew it off.
Not me. I still want to believe that things can change.
🤗
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Post by jcurio on Mar 31, 2019 12:34:21 GMT -6
either put yourself down, or convince yourself you're not nuts. Read more: theedgeofreality.proboards.com/thread/1418/who-simplistic-solutions-jc?page=105#ixzz5jm68sy3R____________ And today, I’m feeling like I fell into some sort of trap. 🙄😌 Because you actually got me talking about my “feelings” again. The conversation, is really about YOU. What do YOU want? (Why that makes me FEEL compelled to talk about MY life, again, is just a form of simpathy 🤗). You now see your kids every day at work. Pretty cool! That was something you wanted, right? You’re still finding yourself, again, so to speak, since you are no longer the care-giver of your spouse. Maybe you were expecting things to “move along” a little quicker? And then what happened? Your family was shattered, again. Why you are wondering if I’m happy or not, or Paulette is happy or not, sounds like your own form of simpathy! I’m a care-giver to my dad (at the moment), and Paulette is the care-giver to her husband. We CAN MAKE IT FULFILLING, which is much better than looking at the fact that deterioration is just around the corner! Eh? It’s quite possibly going to get much worse, before they die. We can’t really pray for a cure, or for someone to take our responsibility from us..... ya know? Of course you do!
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Post by jcurio on Mar 31, 2019 12:40:53 GMT -6
So now that everyone knows what I want (a simple life), and how I feel (sick and tired of being sick and tired ~ smirk~), let me ask You. 🤗
What DO you want?
Start with today. There’s time left in today. What do you want to do today?
😊😘
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Post by jojustjo on Mar 31, 2019 23:27:26 GMT -6
Actually I just like to get you talking to see where you lead yourself. I really do care. I was wondering about you. I truly did wonder what you wanted in your life. What would make you happy. Personally I AM happy....or maybe closer would be I am not unhappy. This is where God has me now. I AM ..that I AM. I get little clues..little answers. I prayed and prayed for my son to get 'just the right job' for him and wow...he did. I was asking as much for me as for him.
What do I want today? Play hookey and drive somewhere lovely...stare at the sky and let my mind go all whimsy on me. That won't happen though. Obligations first. Wednesday is my day off...maybe I'll just do that . LOL planning to be spontaneous...omy.
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Post by jcurio on Apr 2, 2019 6:22:47 GMT -6
(laughing) I Like that! 😁😃😘
Today it will be “obligations”. 2 clients, an oil change, and hopefully prayer meeting tonight.
Tonight is kinda important. A girl-friend is home again after her dads’ memorial last week....... this is my third friend to lose a dad since my dad got worse. 😲 ________________
I really care about you, too.
It’s funny how things our friends say get sorta stuck in our heads! (Internet friends, too!)
🤗
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Post by jcurio on Apr 5, 2019 10:25:59 GMT -6
Disappearance of Patricia Meehan.
I just read this account of her disappearance on wiki, and thought, “doppelgänger”?
Weird.
Two weeks ago I went and saw the suspense/horror flick movie “us”. It had the doppelgänger theme. It was very unreal. Despite all the gore, it even (the movie) had attempted humor. (Did I talk about this movie recently on here??)
The disappearance of Patricia Meehan is also unreal. A lot of sightings of her after her disappearance, with the subsequent finding of a person who looked like her and spoke like her (?).
Ugh. Headache.
I’ve come to believe that “the missing” people of America are sad victims of a murder. Some cases I have to rethink.....
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Post by jojustjo on Apr 6, 2019 23:48:37 GMT -6
I think that a lot of missing people are murders or some misfortune. I honestly don't think that aliens have been snatching (and keeping) human beings. Or having them for a snack on a long trip. I do KNOW aliens abduct people but nope I don't think they keep them. Wayyyy too much trouble..have to freeze them or feed them and provide sanitary stuff...that's a lot of inconvenience. Freezing would be ok I guess...not so much trouble but I still think nah... Maybe some of them stumble into portals leading elsewhere...ya know...anything is possible right?
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Post by jcurio on Apr 7, 2019 5:51:01 GMT -6
IDK.
What’s the purpose of any of it?
We were instilled with a purpose in our lives. In our souls. It is what any thinking individual grows concerned with.
It’s why “we” tend to look at some things as “soul-LESS”.
There’s a basic communication barrier between us and them along these lines...... why? Because we are still guessing at “their” purpose.
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Post by jcurio on Apr 7, 2019 6:32:19 GMT -6
One of the things you (Jo) have said, that stuck in my head, was along the lines of “do I wake up angry”.
I probably was too embarrassed to say “Yes”.
How about, do I wake up sorrowful?
In choosing between the two, if you could, would you rather respond to a bad dream by crawling up into a ball (if you could), or having some sort of “righteous anger” or “indignation” and saying “the he77 with it!” as you get out of bed?
😲🤗
I envy those people who don’t dream. Whose brains literally get a rest at night.
I originally sought therapy at a young age, because of the regularity of vivid, bad dreams. Around age 20, someone came up with this brilliant idea to try and suppress that “part of me” with drugs. Sound familiar? Maybe not to you, Jo.
I imagine that a portion of our human population, when they sought help for bad dreams, it was suggested that they try a drug. Very few were told to quit watching disturbing tv and movies, or questioned on their eating habits.
Look at us now.
Maybe, if they took the time to talk to certain people, checked their eating habits, found out that they avoided disturbing tv or daily “live” image input, they would find out the power of predictions. They would realize, and speak openly about “this primal connection” with what some people just call “Source”. An “early warning system”; what have you.
Would someone choose to “make” those things warned about, happen faster? Even exaggerate the proposed effects? Nah, that’s conspiracy theory stuff..... 😲
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Post by jcurio on Apr 7, 2019 6:35:29 GMT -6
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Post by jcurio on Apr 7, 2019 7:02:02 GMT -6
How, do I put a “positive spin” on THAT one?
I would say, a person with a soul, that defining part of a person, that we like to think about as caring and compassionate, would be a changed person after experiencing something like this. A nurse, a family member that asked just the right questions....? And keep at it. Not give up. Not go kill yourself because there’s no hope in near-sight and the future looks pretty bleak.
Think about it.
This Is NOT a disfiguring illness. Say, like leprosy.
You die in 3 months. Much like some cancers.
Aw, just forget about it. You’re not a “nurse”. You rarely go near sick people, or hospitals. You spot clean your house and car regularly.....
Even IF you were a nurse, do you CARE anymore? You wipe down the counters at work every day, out of habit, but do you do it between each patient? Do you remember? Do you remember what you had for dinner last night?
Do you remember that “alien” you saw when you were 10 years old? What was THAT about??
“It” (whatever it was) told you something.....
How about the last time you had two “sporadic thoughts” that just suddenly came together, and it MEANT something. Did you write it down? Were you afraid that someone would think that you were weird?
Questions.
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Post by jcurio on Apr 9, 2019 8:19:35 GMT -6
(My phone “froze up” when I was on the new “page” posted by evolution- about aliens and human consciousness...) ———————— ☺️ just saying..... ************************* .... and, I’d much rather LAUGH these days, than dwell on sadness or anger (referring to my own last post 😄) _________________
I apologize for sounding so “harsh”.
It (my fluctuating emotions) is why I often CHOOSE the “denial” perspective lately 😂..
And in answer to my own questions? There’s no doubt in my mind that this perspective is taken “advantage of” by our little resident scientists
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Post by jcurio on Apr 9, 2019 8:23:17 GMT -6
I have been “lulled” into a sort of complacency (regarding ETI). And yes, it does have to do with the amount of time I have been alive. And functioning well in society.
Functioning w e l l .
That remains to be seen. And up to interpretation.
Going to work now...... 😁
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Post by jojustjo on Apr 9, 2019 10:24:37 GMT -6
I'd like to think that as we age we become less 'reactive' more inclined to think first before jumping off the cliff. I know what the alien was doing in my bedroom....just marking his territory. Still in my mind...it 'intercepted' my very passionate tearful prayers and it was attracted. That IS the one thing I have that is different from most I know. I am overly emotional over prayer. When I pray it's with a passion and usually with tears...I don't mean to...it just happens. I don't think it's just because I'm a Leo. And it actually works against the psychic self.. It's why we meditate...to clear the mind. Very hard for me to do. When I hit menopause...I didn't. Like my heart attacks are not normal (just throw up) that wasn't either. I cried for a week straight. Sent my husband and daughter off to a horse show and I stayed home and cried...over EVERYTHING....over NOTHING. Then it was done. No mood swings or hot flashes etc. So..something in these small differences caught the attention of 'them'. When my husband died...when my son died...I didn't cry but a very little at night when no one was around..I didn't grieve..but I KNOW they're happy that their well-being is looked after. So this odd emotion when I'm 'consulting' the heavens is different. But I am also still overly reactive. I fret and worry over things I have no control over...while presenting a calm front of course, cause my father didn't like the whole tearful thing. If they had not arrived..would I still be as open minded as I am? Nope. I never laugh at tales of the tales of bigfoot or the jersey devil or the devil himself because I know it's all possible...probably probable. It's not enough to know possibilities anymore though I want to know the realities. It's getting worse. I walk the dogs at night I am constantly looking up feeling drawn..a real pull..or need. So again...lots more questions than answers.
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Post by jcurio on Apr 12, 2019 8:36:11 GMT -6
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Post by jcurio on Apr 12, 2019 8:46:33 GMT -6
I am overly reactive. The other day I was sitting in a restaurant waiting on my take-out order, at a small table by a wall. I was looking at my phone, and out of the corner of my left eye I saw movement. Tried to ignore it. Yes, it was an ANT crawling on the wall. 🙄
So unnecessary. But EXACTLY my type of over-reactive (and calm front/ appearance of detachment). 🙄
I don’t QUESTION that. (and I do credit “them” with enhancing my observational skills).
I don’t QUESTION, that if I see something, I’m not going to turn my head, look up, or look down, and see nothing.
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Post by jcurio on Apr 12, 2019 9:14:28 GMT -6
The real pull... or need...is good!
ONLY, if that “pull”, pulls you into something really “negative”..... those prayers for protection.... ~ sigh ~
How would you know if something is “negative” or positive? From what people say? Or does everything HAVE to be experienced by one’s self?
_____________
Why would questioning anything or everything be considered a negative? But that’s been my experience, until I had the resources to study “the paranormal” alone, and on my own terms. 😊
Question everything.
Lately,
I’m looking for a movie to be called “The Great Forgetting”. (maybe it’s already been done or in the works).
Instead of all of this “alternative” history being hidden from us, ......
😂
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Post by jcurio on Apr 12, 2019 12:53:26 GMT -6
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Post by jcurio on Apr 12, 2019 13:03:15 GMT -6
“But here is one of the most amazing occurrences in all of human history. When the thinkers of the eighteenth, nineteenth, and twentieth centuries were finally compelled to admit that the entire structure of thought in our culture had been built on a profoundly important error, absolutely nothing happened.
It’s hard to notice nothing happening. Everyone knows that. Readers of Sherlock Holmes will remember that the remarkable thing the dog did in the night was … nothing. And this is the remarkable thing that these thinkers did: nothing. Obviously they didn’t care to do anything. They didn’t care to go back to all the foundation thinkers of our culture and ask how their work would have changed if they’d known the truth about our origins. I fear the truth is that they wanted to leave things as they were. They wanted to go on forgetting … and that’s exactly what they did.” ———————-
hmmmmmmmmmmm
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Post by jcurio on Apr 12, 2019 16:18:51 GMT -6
Remember, I am really tired 🙂. I must have seen that “idea” and forgot that I saw it 🙄🙃.
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Post by jcurio on Apr 16, 2019 15:15:40 GMT -6
..... and someones’ in the house.... again.
It is broad daylight, I’m downstairs, and it sounds like someone (or two) are walking around upstairs. Not doing much more than that.
This hasn’t happened in awhile.
The funny thing (similarities), is both times I have been woken from a nap by ?. I start doing something, and the sound starts. So then I’m quiet again; just listening.
Today; not so bad. It’s stopped.
Last Friday was so obvious I went upstairs to say “hi”.
🙄😆
(Dogs aren’t barking).
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Post by jcurio on Apr 17, 2019 22:51:30 GMT -6
And no one was in the house, but me (of course).
I THINK that what happens is, I’m not awake yet. I’m napping, and subconsciously know that I need to get up, and so I’m dreaming that I am getting up, and hearing things.....
An “auditory hallucination”. A “hallucination” because nothing is disturbing the dogs. My dog is deaf. But my sisters dog, the little chiwawah, is not. When he hears a noise and starts barking, my dog (toy poodle) joins in for fun.
Subconsciously, though, I THINK that “someone” is hard-wiring me for my super-whacked-out dreams. Either causing or somehow reaping. ?
A thought that tends to make me sound insane.
But..... sometimes, I see “lights”. Lights in my real, awake world, that should not be there.
So, last Friday, April 12, the noises went on until I went upstairs. And I went up quickly. Expecting that my mom and sister were there.
Yesterday, I went upstairs, and sat down; baffled. I sat still. The “noises” then started happening downstairs. 😲🙄.
Today, I was walking by myself down these wide open halls of a nursing center. I “saw” someone standing in the hall.... I looked again; there was no one there. No where for them to go 👍🏻.
I’m really tired, so why am I giving any relevance to any of this?
___________________
Because, on Friday, I SAW something MORE.
There was a “red light”, like a laser or pointer light, on my ceiling, during the noises upstairs (right after I woke up).
I checked it. Looked at this itty bitty light more than once because I thought it was the light to my smoke detector (nope. I yanked the whole smoke detector from the ceiling last month- because I couldn’t get it to shut up).
Random light? It happens.
So, yesterday, during the noises upstairs, I happen to look up at the ceiling near that same spot. Guess what? There is NOW A tiny whole in the ceiling, as if that red dot burned a tiny hole....
Huh? When did that hole get there? (And took a pic of it.... so that I could blow up the pic on my phone to get a good look).
weird
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Post by jcurio on Apr 18, 2019 8:39:47 GMT -6
Looking at that tiny hole (whole ? ☺️) again, this morning.
I dare say that I slept eight hours straight last night. But upstairs on the couch.
Gotta say that I have a lot going on in my life right now, and running near exhaustion is the total cause of my experiences.
Except that tiny, size of the end of a number 2 pencil, hole in my ceiling.
I have no “feelings” about it. I’ve done some (mild) checking around the room for gaps in curtains, blinds, etc.
And convinced myself that any human pointing a laser light at my ceiling would have HAD to be in the room with me at the time, to put a light on THIS place of the ceiling. And no one was here. Positive about that 🙂.
My dog is deaf. I know that when both of us are sound asleep, my sister has walked into the room and neither of us have woke up. I’m suspect to hearing thumps and thuds from my dad’s history of falling. Him throwing his shoes on the floor was a thud. But someone walking thru here is a different sound; both upstairs and down.
Did I get a reminder that something is going on? Always?
Have I ever said that “this house” scares me?
I’ve been in enough “strange houses” in the past six months.... and haven’t felt that “creepy” house feeling anywhere.
My daughters thought “this house” had its creepy moments. I wonder if someday I will hear more about that.
No one else coming over here has mentioned any thing. Family, or the myriad of healthcare people who have come in and out. We often hear comments that people LIKE coming over here.
~ sigh. Everything is OK.
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Post by jcurio on Apr 18, 2019 17:26:12 GMT -6
Today I am sick. ? Just started throwing up around 11:00 am and did that until 3 pm. No aches and pains so not thinking it’s the flu.
Just something I ate?
Haven’t been this type of sick for a couple of years. Not complaining, but the only type of sickness that lasts me 4 hours is a headache. 🙁
More weirdness. ??
Just ate a light dinner and I’m doing fine.
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Post by skywalker on Apr 18, 2019 21:14:33 GMT -6
How old is the house? Old wooden houses sometimes make weird thumping sounds because if the expansion and contraction caused by changes in temperature. The noises have a tendency to follow patterns of heavy use. For instance if people walked up and down a staircase many times throughout the years the stairs would start to bow a little bit over time and when they start moving with the temperature changes it can sound just like someone walking up the stairs. That's probably one of the main causes of people reporting that their houses are haunted.
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Post by jcurio on Apr 19, 2019 8:15:20 GMT -6
How old is the house? Old wooden houses sometimes make weird thumping sounds because if the expansion and contraction caused by changes in temperature. The noises have a tendency to follow patterns of heavy use. For instance if people walked up and down a staircase many times throughout the years the stairs would start to bow a little bit over time and when they start moving with the temperature changes it can sound just like someone walking up the stairs. That's probably one of the main causes of people reporting that their houses are haunted. I agree. This house is 15 years old. I would say that I know it’s sounds fairly well (with being here almost constantly for 5 years). And, I’m not frightened. 👍🏻
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Post by jcurio on Apr 19, 2019 8:20:58 GMT -6
I wasn’t afraid when even that “footprint” in my yard showed up.
A lot of the things that happen to me are mildly reassuring (these days).
I’m not crazy for being “a sensitive” . Ya know? 😉
Even the new, small hole in my ceiling. I can’t WORRY about it. I’ve never had one of these “laser lights” I occasionally see make even a mark (that I can recall). But it just reminds me to quit denying.
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